I always enjoy reading your posts Oompa.
My personal experience with leaving the jw's went through several phases. Hopefully, it will help you:
1. Guilt; I was so sinful and just generally BAD. 2. Anger; I hated those assholes. 3. Bitterness; I wanted revenge. 4. Apathy; I felt sorry for the poor bastards. 5. Ambivalence.
So far, it has been a 17 year journey. Just achieved ambivalence about a couple of years ago. Damn, those jw's really screwed us up huh?