Well...it takes a strong man to go thru what you are doing.
Even though you know the dubs are not the truth.....it has been a big part of your life and this must have your emotions stirred.
I feel bad for your wife too, because in her mind....you are now lost and have left Jehovah. She may not act too shook up but you can bet she is.
I hope you get thru this OK my friend and we are here for you.
Good Luck!!
PS. Keep showing your sweetie lots of love at this point because she will expect you to "CHANGE".....you know...the paranoia thing they have about us when we leave.