Gregg,
What I was going to tell you, is that when you write a letter, you're "an apostate". If they DF you, you're not necessarily an apostate. Being an ex-JW is one thing. Being "an apostate" is an entirely different thing -- from the vantage point of believing JWs.
Hang in there. The immediate aftermatch of excommunication can be an emotional rollercoaster.
-LWT