In a sense, a personal form of Armageddon...total destruction of the psyche. Failure of logic and sound reasoning to soothe the wounds...only because I was trained not to let them.
Painful, yet given the chance to go thru it all over again, I would...only sooner!
Knowing the truth about things isn't enough, that truth must be acknowledged. This is the barrier for many, many intelligent witnesses. The WT knows quite well that it can't really hide the truth about itself. Therefore, the witness mind is programmed ('washed'...if you will), to discount the truth about things if that information discredits the WT.
This is why I believe people like the E-Watchman are so significant. Here's a loyal witness publicly acknowledging the WTs faults, and to some small degree, calling them to task for it. This is the worst nightmare the WT Society could have ever imagined, because this indicates that there are some witnesses willing to call things as they are. Even though his rationalizations for it all damage his credibility, it is still notable that there exist witnesses who are willing to call things as they really are!
In my opinion, this is quite telling, because eventually, more and more who are honest enough to recognize the truth about 'the truth' are starting down the road that will eventually lead them to their own, personal Armageddon.