Posts by freewilly01

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New here

by Heartbreaker in

i have no idea what i want to convey in words here on this site, and have surprised myself by even joining at all.

i intended just to read, and get a few pieces of information, and now am a member, and spend many hours looking through posts old and new alike.

i am a current jw, born into it, and lets just say i'm in my thirties, female, and a mom of more than your average kids.

It begins for its own reasons for each one of us here who have left....... but the common thread seems to be that it just doesn't seem right. It sometimes begins as a gut feeling that there is an insincerity of oneself to stay, and the honest thing to do is to leave.

I had that very similair calm "you know its right to leave" kinda moment but it takes the biggest balls possible to actually do it. It def takes strength and character to pull it off and remain intact, and yes therapy with a professional really makes a huge impact on leaving as a whole person.

I sometimes still shake my head and can't really believe that I am free now! That is motivation for me to never look back.

Good Luck! Yeah U need that too! no matter what they tell U.

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Talking points for reasoning with JWs

by bluecanary in

i've emailed this to several people now so figured i might as well post it and share with all.

the following information has been compiled from various sources on the web, including jwfacts.com and free minds.

a fraction of it is from my own mind.

freewilly01

Hey,

We have been out for over sixteen years and the "Borg" has still left its marks on us. Unfortunately we seem to be a "worst case scenario"when it comes to manipulation and control and emotional abuse when we were children. I honestly seems you have a ton on your plate in regards to just coping with your marriage breakup and seperation issues with your children let alone loosing all our so called friends.

To be part of a group therapy or discussion group is really important. I was in therapy for over six months with a psychiatrist just to be able to leave and still be a whole person intact without the guilt and emotional turmoil most experience so you have to do the work!

So make time for yourself to just chill and settle a bit, take a deep breath and enjoy that freeness of mind and heart you are beginning to enjoy. Remember it takes balls to leave and make changes in your life, it takes strength of character to say " Hey man I am outta here and I'm not going to sell out any more ever!"

Your kids are so fotunate to have a force in their lives that will eventually be able to really show UNCONDITIONAL love to them. Unconditional love was never part of the equation in our lives was it. Not ever worrying or jerking our kids around because of some stupid comment or observation an elder makes only to have a clone family out in public yet all messed up behind doors.

Get some Regge music going and get happy its only going to get better.

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Jehovah's Witness successfully preaches to atheist co-worker

by Awakened at Gilead in

my first attempt at an xtranormal text converted to video... this is just for fun... but i might get hooked!.

a jehovah's witness informally witnesses to a co-worker, inviting him to the public talk at the district convention "the end is near".

see how our sister is able to skillfully overcome the atheist's objections, and concludes on a good note, that hopefully will lead to a return visit on monday.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r7jalx1ezi8.

freewilly01

Too Funny! I loved it!

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WHAT HAS HELPED HEALED CURED YOUR BITTERNESS WITH THE BORG?

by freewilly01 in

jw
friends

is there or has there been anything that has aided you in your quest to rid yourself of the bitterness and resentment of the jw's .

i know for some it has appeared that they have a newfound religion or religious belief, but that is not the case with myself.. for some maybe visiting these sites encourages them to shed those miserable memories?

for me it just builds more resentment.

freewilly01

Thank-you so, so much everyone! I have enjoyed and laughed and have really appreciated all of your replies. I have come to realize that we should

be candidates for MENSA..... their is no doubt that our reason for leaving was our grey matter our IQ our EQ emotional quotient, we were just to smart,

intelligent, with it, true to ourselves, and honest to have stayed and actually believed all that B.S. Maybe this realization is what I needed to actually

come to grips with. So instead of being bitter about it I should really be thanking my lucky stars, pondering and appreciating the fact that I was able

to get out FREE UP some space in my tete(head) and take a deep breathe ................

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WHAT HAS HELPED HEALED CURED YOUR BITTERNESS WITH THE BORG?

by freewilly01 in

jw
friends

is there or has there been anything that has aided you in your quest to rid yourself of the bitterness and resentment of the jw's .

i know for some it has appeared that they have a newfound religion or religious belief, but that is not the case with myself.. for some maybe visiting these sites encourages them to shed those miserable memories?

for me it just builds more resentment.

freewilly01

IS THERE OR HAS THERE BEEN ANYTHING THAT HAS AIDED YOU IN YOUR QUEST TO RID YOURSELF OF THE BITTERNESS AND RESENTMENT OF THE JW'S

I KNOW FOR SOME IT HAS APPEARED THAT THEY HAVE A NEWFOUND RELIGION OR RELIGIOUS BELIEF, BUT THAT IS NOT THE CASE WITH MYSELF.

FOR SOME MAYBE VISITING THESE SITES ENCOURAGES THEM TO SHED THOSE MISERABLE MEMORIES? FOR ME IT JUST BUILDS MORE RESENTMENT

WHAT SHORT OF A BRAIN BLOCK FRONTAL LOBOTOMY HAS BEEN OF ASSISTANCE TO YOU PERSONALLY???

WE WOULD LUV TO KNOW

THX

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Did You Usually Feel Guilty While A JW?

by minimus in

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friends

my 79 year old mom that has every ailment known to man was going to the bookstudy this afternoon because she felt "guilty" for not going the last couple of meetings due to illness.

i told her it was 95 degrees outside and asked her not to go since she has difficulty breathing.

she decided to do it anyway.

freewilly01

I used to feel guilty that I was a NORMAL teenage male everytime my NATURAL HEALTHY SEXUAL urges came raging over me. God I hate guilt. I have done everything possible to remove the G word from my vocabulary and life since being influenced by those manipulating self serving idiots. There bad advice has caused much depression and suicide amongst the younger ones over the years .... Bitter who me?

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WHAT WAS YOUR AHA! MOMENT THATIT WAS TIME TO EXIT THE BORG?

by freewilly01 in

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friends

i had a huge light bulb on moment as i wasy in therapy dealing with a nasty anxiety disorder for many years and having a huge trigger in my life finally silenced.

it was almost the last thing that i thought i would end up doing expecially if you asked my wife and myself even a year before our decision to " live " thats how i view it not decision to leave...........it was a decision to live.. .

my therapist psychiatrist asked me who are you?

freewilly01

I had a huge light bulb ON moment as I wasy in therapy dealing with a nasty anxiety disorder for many years and having a huge trigger in my life finally silenced. It was almost the last thing that I thought I would end up doing expecially if you asked my wife and myself even a year before our decision to " LIVE " thats how I view it not decision to leave...........it was a decision to live.

My therapist psychiatrist asked me WHO are you? I responded with my name and then drew a huge blank.............I had been so manipulated and controlled by guilt and social acceptance in the Borg that I really truly didn't know.........

That was a moment that really started fermentation of a really profound thought just who am I?. I sort of liken it to a fermentation process of wine, U need the raw product grapes or in my case a brain that was full of thoughts and feelings that werent even mine and over years and years of being programed at a very early age I was nowhere with my self discovery as a person make sense? hope so. In many ways I feel that the religious part of my life really arrested me. I know for a fact that it did monetarily in that we are at least 15 years behind others our own age and sometimes I feel even emotionally it stunts your growth as a man and a woman to allow yourself to be so controlled.

After 18 or so years of fermentation I am still a young wine ..... my mind feels clear and unclutterd I am more real than I have ever been more motivated to continue growing and learning about life. I now accept part of the blame in that I didnt act earlier in my life after having doubts from time to time. Didn't stand up and say Hey man I 'm outta here as some have done in reading their posts and who I applaude.

So what was your AHA moment? What finally was the trigger for you to LIVE!

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Since leaving the witnesses....

by LouBelle in

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friends

my life has been an absolute joy.

i didn't realise how unhappy i was and how much tension, angst and animosity i actually carried around with me when in that faith - it was always us against them, with regards to everything.

i wasn't allowed to just be myself, to be free to express myself - and by that i don't mean being sexually immoral, drinking and passing out...i just mean plain and simple me laughing, joking, sleeping in, playing sports, healty compition, buy a gift for my mother on mothers' day, celebrating a birthday of someone i love (all those beautiful little things that make a person unique you know).. my life now is free, happy, mostly full of joy and peace.

freewilly01

Some of my best days are when I finally realize that the thought of my past life hasn't been on my mind for days and days and that I am farther away than I was yesterday............ that its all a vague fog and some huge mistake that wasn't meant to happen.... I know get over it! Ha!

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canadian members | | * | |

by chickpea in

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freewilly01

I am wearing my shorts and Canada Flag socks today!!!!!! Is that apostate? Happy Birthday Canada!!!!!!!!!

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Congregation "Bible Study" Comments - Week Commencing 29 June 2009

by LUKEWARM in

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"whateverthingsarechaste".

(a) how may we show that we have jehovah's view on morals?

(b) how can applying bible principles become your way of life?.

freewilly01

It is the oldest form of manipulation...............guilt and the collective BORG...........this religion is all about guilt.... how does the GB actually know whats good or bad many of these men do not even have sex or not in a committed relationship..... maybe if they were able to relax and enjoy making decisions on their own they would stop trying to guilt and ruin everybody elses life even trying to control who lives and who dies with the blood issue!

Its like we are all just children? and can't make decisions ourselves we need to be manipulated to answer questions with only select ansers provided in the above paragraph.... fear of man? yep the Watchtower promotes it within its own ranks........... How many of you feel that you are always looking over your shoulder at what everybody else is thinking.....................................My answer to that is WHO CARES! Now their is varying degrees of conscience? it should be varing degrees of GUILT!!!!!