Misery-I'm quite curious how you managed to stay single so long. It seems especially with the Witnesses,if there is a single brother,especially with elder status, there's a radar that goes up for single sisters miles around. I'm sure there are some after you,and you're not even aware of it.
Of course,I understand why you wouldn't want to get in that situation right now
Its nothing spectacular really. I lived a double life for so long, Empty. For the longest time past my teenage years and into my early twenties, I lived a double life. I was the perfect JW at the hall and in field service, but unbeknownst to my family and the congregation I was still running with some borderline hooligans. I had some fun, but eventually it got to a point where I had enough of it. People in my circuit and my congregation think I'm shy, and to some degree I am, but what they don't realize is I'm really making an effort not to hurt anyone. I'm not sure where I stand right now, and I don't want to hurt someone. I always said I wouldn't be one of those brothers who would ruin some sister. I've seen quite a few dudes who have hurt very good women. Dynamic, intelligent women. I refuse to be one of those men. I'd rather die than strip a good woman of her dignity. In my hall now, there's a few sisters, pioneers, who'm all I'd have to do is look at them a certain way, and they'd fall in line. I don't say that to be cocky, but rather just to illustrate how messed up the dating game is amongst JWs. If I knew for sure that I was hanging around this religion, I'd commit to a sister at my hall or my circuit. As it stands now, I'm very unsure, so out of respect for good women and their families, I'll hold off at this time. Every now and then I flirt with the thought of committing to one of them, but it just wouldn't be right. It makes me feel like I'm no good. I've done some things that I've never shared on this forum, that I'm not proud of. It makes me feel crumby, but it is what it is. Makes me want to drink...wow. I don't know what to say sometimes. Been a heluva life, but it hasn't been, if that makes sense.