Welcome Sue...I am sorry to hear of the deaths of those close to you. I was born-in, raised...and it took me forever to get free, but thankfully I have. I have no use for any organized religion personally, but respect those who do find a place and peace in a religion. I think even the Witnesses hold an attraction for people who are quite needy and not comfortable in their own skin...but, be that as it may. My only excursions into the halls of Babylon have been for funerals, and I must say, one Catholic one I went to was most pleasant.
Good luck to you and keep posting!!