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  How many times a day do U think about being ExJW?

  by LyinEyes in

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  i thought about this tonite, i was out on the town with my husband, trying to forget about the week i had of being sick.

  trying to not think about my 3 kids problems they all have,,,,,,,,like who gets to do what this weekend and who's turn it is to call the radio.

  just trying to unwind a bit.

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  moana

  It's been so long since I've been gone .......27 years. I don't think it would pop into my head at all except for the shunning part I've been dealing with lateley. That makes me think about it alot. Especially, when people talk about their mothers & getting together doing things or visiting each other or holiday plans. I think of being told I was selfish for wanting birthdays and holidays. I think about knocking on doors instead of being able to play as a child. I know this shunning thing will get better - just like grieving. That's what I have to do. The worst part is this mother is still alive - it's just that she is deep in a cult.

  Sharing it is the best medicine for me. Would you believe I tell everybody about my mother not able to speak to me. They are so shocked & very helpful to me.

  drea
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  Why I don't Want children

  by LuckyLucy in

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  people often ask me why i don't have children...."is it because you don't like them?

  " it's quiet the contrary.

  i like them alot!

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  Lucy:

  A very long time ago - when I was 25 years old I didn't want any then either. I tell people it's because I don't care for them.....but really it's mostly because I am selfish. Ok, I admit it. I love to come & go when I please & I figure I'd probably have one that would grow up & kill it's mamma.

  THe only time I regretted it for 15 seconds was when I was shunned by Pauline, about three months ago (used to be my parent) - & I thought if I did have one I would've had some kind of pal. But guess what!! That child would probably be on the streets taking drugs. I do feel it is hard to keep kids outta trouble & I see parents that run them constantly to all kinds of things to avoid that. It's ok to not have any. Actually, when I travel I run into quite a few couples like us. They wouldn't be able to trave and do the things we do with kids - unless they are filthy rich, of course!

  Think I'll go shopping today!!

  drea
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  Need a GalPal - Houston TX?????!!!

  by moana in

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  howdy:.

  joined a meetup group here, and read the board in hopes of finding a local pal that can relate to this awful shunning.

  it's been hard for me.

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  Howdy:

  Joined a meetup group here, and read the board in hopes of finding a local pal that can relate to this awful shunning. It's been hard for me. I live about 40 miles south of Houston - but work in the city. I have lots of interest that keep me grounded & I have a great hub & a wonderful place in country. Still wish for a gal pal to talk to - - - - -

  drea
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  Can't they leave me alone????

  by moana in

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  howdy ya'all:.

  gotta get over this - i feel like i'm having a nervous breakdown most days.

  parent told me she is unable to speak with me anymore (3 months ago), sends watchtowers to me & hub.

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  Howdy Ya'all:

  Gotta get over this - I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown most days. Parent told me she is unable to speak with me anymore (3 months ago), sends Watchtowers to me & hub. Now she writes to say she is sending brothers on our behalf. Hub wants to blow up their car when they arrive - but I reminded him (since we live in a rural area) we'd be stuck with them at our place. Of course, the whole shunning thing is for smoking 27 years ago and I quit that about 14 years ago. I C how I can be a horrible influence. Anyway, the whole thing makes me want to vomit. I am trying to get better & I go to a meetup group monthly. I believe the point I'm at right now is I'm praying for me to stop wishing her dead.

  I don't post - but I read ya'all comments & do enjoy the help I get from them - just knowing I'm not alone helps me alot. Still wish I had someone close by to talk to.

  drea
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  Do something about your life.............

  by Dawn in

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  it seems that no matter how successful i am in life (family, career, social, money, etc...) it doesn't matter to my mother......her comment is always something like "when are you going to do something about the truth".

  i get so agrivated that i want to scream!!

  i have explained to her that i no longer believe the governing body to be directed by god - she knows i don't believe it is the truth any longer - yet every few months she says "when are you going to do something about your life" - it's like she's talking to a recovering drug addict just coming out of rehab with no job and nowhere to live.....do something about your life..........she just doesn't get it.

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  Dawn:

  I just can't understand it either - people of other faiths aren't constantly on the conversion track. My parent doesn't speak to me anymore & I still get WT sent to me. Being tossed to the devil should be a good thing considering that Jehovah has a big stick. It certainly doesn't seem like a loving christian attitiude to treat people this way. It still makes me hurt because I keep looking to this site to remind myself that I'm not a bad person.

  Look forward to the meetup group that gets together next weekend. It helps to know that I'm not alone in feeling cast out & isolated from family. At least your mom speaks to you - guess relationships can never be truly loving amogst a cult.

  love drea
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  nervous and confused

  by dazedgrl in

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  hi, i have been reading post for over a month before getting up the nerve to register.

  its been really interesting listening to all of your perspectives.

  i was raised a jw.

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  moana

  HiYa Dazy:

  I read the stories and get so much relief here. I've been away so many years I couldn't begin to count em'. But growing up like that has a strong hold. It took me many many years to be able to accept a loving God in my life (my God does not have a big stick now). The book is also what is helping me since my mother told me she cannot speak to me. All the things Raymond Franz relates in his book is from the inside view. He was on the governing body! There are tons of books out there. I think our movement is growing faster than theirs!!!!

  So many wonderful people here are so encouraging to me too. I read posts everyday and get remineded that it is a cult & I can question anything I want & have the freedom to believe what I want.

  We R free!
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  Shunned & I don't seem to care. Can u relate?

  by joeshmoe in

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  here's a concern... i've been shunned by my family for going on 3 months... and so what?

  is it wrong that i don't seem to miss them?

  i know that this can be painful for many and i wonder why it doesn't seem to bother me?

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  moana

  Thanks everybody - all the posts helped me so much!! THis has been a terrible thing to be told my mother cannot speak to me anymore. I now feel sorry that she has to live with that God that has a big stick.

  I count my blessings everyday & am starting to realize we have nothing in common now. It's nice to know that I am not alone. I get a lot of comfort from knowing that we all had a very unique upbringing & that we were smart enough to see for the cult & mind controld it truly is.

  It has been about a month now - & I'm feeling better everyday. It could be worse - I could've been a part of a big family.

  drea
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  I GOT A NEW JOB!!!!

  by writerpen in

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  since i can't call my former friends and family, you guys are the first to hear this good news in my life.

  i've just been offered a local government job that will increase my salary greatly.

  since i've been out of the borg, i have recevied more blessings than i ever did.

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  pen:

  Congrats on the new position! I've realized that good jobs are hard to come by these days ---- by the by ....I gotta govment job too - if anyone wants it - it's yours. I'll even provide free training.

  Just Kidding - I don't really think they are all as bad as mine.

  drea
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  Anyone Remember This?

  by Undecided in

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  when i was a little boy this is what we did at the assemblys to advertise the sunday talk.

  this was at richmond va. i'm on the left, my cousin is in the center, and my brother in on the right.

  we passed out handbills.

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  Ken:

  It pains me when I see the children at my door. It brings back the memory of what it felt like. I don't remember doing that - excactly, but I do remember passing out handbills. I think I passed them out at Yankee Stadium at assemblies. Those assemblies were such a waste of time.

  Isn't is great to be free?

  drea
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  "Jehovah's Witnesses make mean parents!"

  by LDH in

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  you have been warned.

  only read this if you can reach the toilet or wastebasket quickly.. .

  from this gem of a site:.

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  moana

  Just found you. It helps me feel better thru the day. It's nice to know I'm not the only one that had to be dragged from door - to - door.

  It's very sad that they think it is all in the name of the "Truth" - I remember how I felt as a young person being such an outcast & constantly made fun of. It began when I couldn't salute the flag in grade school. That began the mocking and it never stopped. The only thing that would've been worse for me is if I had two crazy jw parents! One was enough. Now I have none. Being an only child there is nowhere to turn.

  I am reading Crisis of Conscience and it all helps me count my blessings. I am so blessed I don't have to live like that.

  thanks to ya'all - drea