Thanks for all the nice comments everyone!
doublelife
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My update
by doublelife init's been a couple of months since i posted anything.
i finally have internet in my apartment.
some of you may not remember me, some may.
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My update
by doublelife init's been a couple of months since i posted anything.
i finally have internet in my apartment.
some of you may not remember me, some may.
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doublelife
It's been a couple of months since I posted anything. I finally have internet in my apartment. Some of you may not remember me, some may. There's a lot of newbies on here who I don't know. My divorce it almost final. It shouldn't be too long away. Things have been great. A little lonely at times, but for the most part great. I've been dating the guy I talked about before who's in my acting class. Things are going good with him. It's very interesting dating in the real world versus the cult world. I like it a lot better. For one, he can pick me up for a date, and we can ride together in his car ALONE. We don't have to meet in a public place or have chaperons. Of course, my mom is trying to convince me that all "worldy" men will give me aids and rape me. Neither one of those applies to him, but my mom won't believe me. He's very respectful, very intelligent, funny, cute. He knows about my jw background and it's okay. I don't feel embarrassed about it. I can be myself with him. He had a birthday about a month ago, so I got to celebrate a birthday for the first time. I just baked him cookies. I tried shopping for a birthday card, but it felt so awkward. I ended up not getting him a card, I just told him happy birthday myself. I'm starting to learn a lot more about myself now that my time is not being consumed with cult activities. I can take the time to just sit in my apartment, be alone, and just think. And I don't feel guilty about it or feel like I'm wasting time that could be used to read a Watchtower. I can do whatever I want now. And I feel a lot better about myself. For the first time in my life, I'm not in an abusive environment or relationship. I'm learning how to be normal and happy. Well, now that I'm back, hopefully I'll have more time to read and post on here.
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How to be alone
by mrsjones5 inone of my groups on facebook posted this video and i'm posting it here cuz i thought it was sweet and poignant:.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7x7szzsxys.
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doublelife
Awe, I like that. It reminds me of this book I just finished reading called Introvert Power.
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It's done. I did it. I moved out.
by doublelife ini'm officially living on my own and it feels great.
i was worried that once i move out i'd regret my decision but i knew right away that i made the right decision.
i was nervous about telling him.
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I'm officially living on my own and it feels great. I was worried that once I move out I'd regret my decision but I knew right away that I made the right decision. I was nervous about telling him. I had him meet me at a restaurant so we'd be in public. He was calmer than I thought he'd be. He said he expected it. But, I think he was surprised at the way I did it without telling him first. Then, he said that he wished I would've told him so that we could've stayed together a little longer to save money so that we would've had more money to split. He also asked me if I left the apartment clean. I was a little surprised he asked me that. I was too busy packing to clean. I feel bad for him though. Yesterday was a bad day for him. After I told him I moved out he said that he just found out that his grandma has alzheimer's. He's still on my facebook but we've both changed our status to single. A lot of his friends commented in shock. None of them were expecting this. They didn't even know that I was inactive. We're not going to go through a messy divorce though. We've both agreed to just split things ourselves so that we don't have to involve any lawyers. We're just going to do a no fault divorce. But, he did ask for the ring back. I asked him what he'd do with it, give it to another girl? And he said yes. I couldn't believe he admitted to that. I told him that was wrong and if he did that and she found out she's be pissed. He just said, "She'll never know."
So I get home and my moms calls me. I was going to wait til the next day to tell her but since she called I thought I'd get it over with. I was shocked by her reaction. I really thought she was going to freak out but the first thing she said was that she wasn't crazy about him. She blames him for my spiritual decline. But she went through emotional abuse from my dad so she understood. But, she didn't waste any time in telling me that I have to stay single forever. She said that if I start dating that I'll be sinning in Jehovah's eyes. She said she knows it's a decision that I have to make but she hopes I do what's right. And of coarse she said this is the perfect time for me to come back to Jehovah and I that I need him right now.
She also said something else that bothered me. I deleted all my jw friends from facebook and my mom saw one of my friends a few weeks ago and she told her that I blocked my email from her.(I guess she didn't want to admit in the kingdom hall that she had a fb account) Anyways, this friend wasn't my best friend and she's done a lot of things to hurt me but she was also there for me when I went through a lot of hard times. I feel bad for rejecting her like this but I can't have her on my fb because then it would get around to other jws that I've pretty much become worldly. I've thought about calling her to explain my situation to her but I'm just not sure how she'd react. I'm pretty sure that she'd tell others. I just feel so bad for hurting her without being able to give her an explaination. This cult sucks!
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Ugh! I just got a package in the mail from my mom
by doublelife inshe sent me about seven magazines including the april 15, 2010 study cult edition.
it's the one with the new definition of generation.
i wonder if she's read it yet.
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carla: I certainly won't be sending her COC but I've thought about finding a source they quoted from and sending it to her to show how they either misquote or take things out of context.
aSphereisnotaCircle: Lol.
Heaven: I think I've learned that I can't look through them anymore either.
snowbird: I agree.
sacolton: Lol.
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Ugh! I just got a package in the mail from my mom
by doublelife inshe sent me about seven magazines including the april 15, 2010 study cult edition.
it's the one with the new definition of generation.
i wonder if she's read it yet.
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I quit!: You're probably right about her being insane. I don't have the magazine in front of me because I'm at work but her name is on that link I posted. The initials are RR, I think the last name is Romel.
Cagefighter: That's probably what I should start doing.
mrsjones5: My cat enjoyed tearing them up for me. lol
Dagney: I like how you handle it. That's what I'll need to do.
serenitynow!: I know. It's such a waste of money and resources.
Black Sheep: Lol! Why in the world would my mom send me a package of condoms? And yeah, that's the way Steven Hassen says to do it. Let the cult member hear themselves explain their beliefs.
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Ugh! I just got a package in the mail from my mom
by doublelife inshe sent me about seven magazines including the april 15, 2010 study cult edition.
it's the one with the new definition of generation.
i wonder if she's read it yet.
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serenitynow!: I do plan on asking her about it. And I'm surprised she sent me the private edition too. Maybe she thinks that if I have it I'll want to go back to the meeting.
man in black: You're right. I do appreciate that she cares. I know having me become inactive is heartbreaking for her. She invited me to go to the assembly last week and when I told her that I don't want to go, I could hear her trying to told back the tears. It's hard to put her through this.
OUTLAW: After reading your comment I wondered the same thing. So I google the singer's name and this is the only thing I found:
http://media9watch.blogspot.com/2010/04/debate-about-tv-impact_30.html
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Where do I begin?
by Backspacer ini'm new here but have been reading/lurking for several months.
it's good to know that i'm not alone in my ex-jw status and that my story and experiences are not unique.
i have no bitterness or anger anymore.... that's long gone since i left some 12 years ago.
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doublelife
Welcome!
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Ugh! I just got a package in the mail from my mom
by doublelife inshe sent me about seven magazines including the april 15, 2010 study cult edition.
it's the one with the new definition of generation.
i wonder if she's read it yet.
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She sent me about seven magazines including the April 15, 2010 study cult edition. It's the one with the new definition of generation. I wonder if she's read it yet. This is the perfect opportunity for me to say something to her about it but I'm not really sure how to handle it.
Anyways, I had a quick look through some of the articles and a couple of things pissed me off. One was the May 15, 2010 study article titled "Women, Why Submit to Headship?" As someone who is about to leave my husband in two days, this really irks me. I'm so glad I've broken through the mind control.
The other one is the June 2010 Awake on page 24, "Why I Gave Up a Lucrative Career" The article is about a woman who was a professional singer in Mexico. At the beginning of the article she said she made enough money to be able to "enjoy such luxuries as jewels, mink coats, and penthouse living." By the end of the article, she makes tamales and sells them on the street to support her pioneering. I hate this cult.
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From Pioneer to Professor: My Story
by laverite ini wanted to say hello.
i knew i was gay.
i wanted to study and learn about everything i could.
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doublelife
Thanks for sharing your story. I admire anyone who goes to college. I've always wanted to go but I never took my education seriously when I was growing up. You know, because armageddon was going to be here before I turned 18. Anyways, I feel so inadequate for college. If I went I feel like I'd be behind everyone else. I'm glad things worked out well for you and now you can be your authentic self.