Gutted,
Welcome to the board. As you can see, there are thousands of JW and Ex-JW that have experienced what you are now going through.
The advices are great, but I’ll reinforce that you need to, above everything…take it slow…don’t rush, and please please DON’T TRUST ANYONE & DON’T TALK TO ANYONE!!
Come here, talk here, grieve here, let your frustration come out here!
I also recommend you buying the book “Crisis of Conscience” and Steve Hassan’s “Combating Cult Mind control”
I recommend you getting the PDF version of Crisis of Conscience and saved it on a usb drive that only YOU have control of. This will help you keep the book in ‘secret’.
My friend, fasten your seatbelt…you’re in for a wonderful ride!
A comrade,
TJLibre