Never talked to anyone while in.... never baptised. I left as soon I could, but just knew I would never be a "good little JW" and felt that the end was so soon I would see what the world was like. 1975 came and went, I started to read bible history from a non JW standpoint.
I married, had a family, etc. My JW family would talk about changes and I wondered what else was changing.
Computers came in the 1990s and then search engines.... *I could find out what else was happening! Read Crisis of Conscience and no more guilt.