What a relief it is to finally realise I wasn't the only one to feel so totally worthless knowing I would not be able to endure such despicable, inhumane treatment.
As a child hearing these reports of persecution always troubled me, I was told 'You think too much, it probably wont even happen to you'
It troubled me because I just couldn't (still can't) see the point of god 'allowing' torture to happen, monitoring it to see that the torture 'will not go beyond what you can bear' before he kicks in.
You see my earthly father would've done all he could to prevent his child being tortured in the first place, if he had just sat there allowing bicycle spokes to be push through my legs, my limbs encircled by cuts so I could prove my loyalty to him I would have to question his character.