i was talking with a friend of mine on the board yesterday and the discussion gave me the idea for this thread !
( thanks friend !
) and it seems as we were talking the thought came up that many of us when exiting the mind control of jehovah's witnesses we really come to appreciate the freedom to think how we want and be able to have access to other views which helps us to have a broader scope , or broader world view than just the tunnel vision of the wt society.
I am enjoying the idea of finding out who I am! I have never known! I am enjoying looking at people outside of the org. and seeing them as people! Before I thought that everyone who was not a JW was a disease ridden heathen! I am glad not to look at people in such a narrow minded way anymore! The world is a much less scary place than I had been taught as a child. I know that there are dangers, but it is not anything like I was told.
I enjoy the fact that I have found unconditional love from friends and family outside the Org! I love it that I am going to school again,and working on a degree! I am looking forward to building up the self esteem that was taken from me as a child. I am so much happier, even though I am going through a rough time right now.
Honestly, I just stopped. I was just a measly woman, and had no husband to lure them to care about me. So, I didn't turn it in, and they never asked. Then I just started coming to less and less meetings. No one cared, and honestly, I wanted it that way! It confirmed everything that I had ever thought about them!
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I am on this site every day since I have found it! It has brought me much comfort and interesting conversation. Very thought provoking! I find myself digging for the truth much harder than I ever did being raised as a JW. Thank you for giving people like us a place to go to heal!
i was in for 30 years.....my ex was an elder...."holy spirit appointed" he tortured me....i was married 33+ years....you know,,,marriage is sacred...you can leave,,,i know,,,,if abuse is intolerable....but that starts a series of events...etc etc etc....i finally left everything...and moved far away.....people actually believe "holy spirit" appoints people,,,my ex would not pray unless there was an audience...you know,,,,people invited over for supper kind of thing,,,you get the point..... my best friend had a mental breakdown,,,,she basically became psychotic.....had to be hospitalized....she took up smoking,,,got disfellowshipped...and lost all emotional support....to this day,,,,as far as i know,,,she is still disfellowshipped...needs to be hospitialized every so often....she is on complete disability.....and still trying to get back into the org....her mother does support some what,,,,even though she is a witness herself,,,,,takes her to assemblies,,,,memorial,,,etc,,,,this has gone on for years.....she cannot mentally handle the organization,,,nor can she mentally handle not being a witness...lost everything....guilt....etc..... did not mean to ramble on so much......i have mental scars that will not go away....because i stayed in a "mess" for god,,,,i could write page after page of things like the above....as being my "last straw".......curious about you here on the board....any specific "breaking point" or a collection of many things..... thanks for your in put...peaches.
Peaches, Honestly, it was the lack of "brotherly affection" that I saw in the organization. The harsh judging, the gossiping, the slander, the way women were made to feel like a second class citizen. It all just got to be too much. I kept trying so hard to do what I thought I was supposed to do, but it was never enough. If God knows my heart condition already, and he is a loving god, then I am trusting Him to judge my heart. Not the elders, not the other publishers.
I was sick at my stomach. I just found out a few weeks ago, I haven't really gotten the rage yet. I am still kind of waiting for the other shoe to drop. I feel frightened that I could believe in something like that so completely. And I clung to it! Even though the elders and some sisters, and the impossible standards in the congregation made me so miserable! Oh, I think maybe the rage is coming!!! (and the vomit!)
when everything was new and i was a child there was a feeling of relief knowing that i was born in to the truth and i was so thankful for that.
i was thankful to my mom for being strong and raising us to have such strong faith.
i was thankful to my father for.... making my childhood horrible, there for making it so everyday we had to really rely on jehovah to make it threw, that in turn build my faith stronger.
Glad you posted this! I hope that you can put your family off at least until you can raise some serious doubts in their heads. Hang in there! And you know I am always here for you!!!!!!
Hi and Welcome Crazy2try and Beccaslife.... I am new here too, this board is great! So much support, and interesting conversation. Enjoy it, and enjoy your freedom!
I feel for you! It's definitely going around. Hopefully it is the one that only lasts for 3 or 4 days. I had that several weeks ago. Very miserable, but not too long.
