But what can I do? Refuse the talk, and all meeting parts, refuse the field service :) ?
yes
and yes you are right it is not an easy dicision but you are responsible for what comes out of your mouth. And if you promote/parrot the JW thing.....is that how you really want to be?
It is a very hard decision, that's why some decide to fade, but once I learned the truth about the truth(tm) I never commented again, gave a talk or went in service. It is much easier than you think to fake it and JWs don't notice.
Now go practice on your excuses for not telling lies anymore.
btw, welcome to the board. You may find some courage to be yourself from reading the experiences here on this board.