Hi mzmmom, You are alive. Your parents may be in a coma or dead. Happy New Year!! Yeah I know that it sucks that your parents are controlled by a dangerous cult, but why waste your life trying to please them.
Are you planning to write to your parents about your feelings? If you are, keep it simple. You love them unconditionally, (worded incase you are not a Christian) there is no sense in continuing to disipline you by shunning you because you would rather believe that Jesus Christ is your mediator with God and not the WTBTS, and life is too short to talk about the WTBTS.
Peace be with you and everyone, who you love,
Robert