Welcome HeartsAfire!
My husband woke up before I did. I resented him initially but got over it relatively quickly. I have been fully awake for only about 6 months. However I was baptized at age 10 and have had intermittent doubts/cognitive dissonance since age 12.
All of our parents, grandparents, most of our siblings, and our favorite cousins are all-in dub-bots. I understand your wanting to wake your husband up. It is a struggle for me everyday to not get on the phone and give a passionate unwitness to my family members whom I love; I feel such a burning desire to get them out of this prison. But then I remember how they most likely would really respond (shunning me and/or having me formally expulsed) and I have to say nothing.
You are in good company here.