Welcome Teddy
I'm going to a congregation but am viewed as a bit of a black sheep because I question lots of things but not enough to cause too much trouble.
None of my business but you seem to have got the measure of the cult.
Stop going to the congregation if possible.
Problem solved. It's a fake religion posing as 'the truth(tm)'.
Get out of her my people and all that jazz.
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