The morning after! I am glad the first night has passed Intel. I'm also glad you get to take a few days off. Just get used to your freedom. When I decided to never return, I felt so light. I realised I didn't have a set of rules constructed by others to live by and it felt just great. Not that I went nuts or anything, but it was such a relief not to examine every motive, think about what some non-existent entity would think, or if I would stumble someone. I just felt so relaxed.
Sometimes I think I can't be surprised anymore, but one thing you said did surprise me. You said the elder told you he didn't think a future judicial committee would ever let you come back. Now I know you don't want to go back, and maybe that comment was even comforting, but WHAT? LOL You were an elder, so I can ask. Was that appropriate? Can one elder after 2 hours decide your eternal fate? Anyway, we know he has absolutely no authority, I just found it surprising.
Enjoy your day. I'm sure it will be bittersweet for a while. If the guilt trips become too much, remind them all that they shouldn't be talking to an apostate.
NC