First Bianca welcome to the board. We are all glad that you are here with us. I left the JW religion because I did not want my three daughters raised as second class citizens. I wanted them to have an educations and experience life. There JW elder father wanted them to only pioneer, find a good JW young man and get married.
So all my daughers were raised as an elder's daughters. My oldest had it the most difficult. You are expected to be an unbaptized publisher, become a baptised publisher, pioneer etc. Remember to your dad what you do reflects on him. It is all about what others think of you when you are an elder. Because of this feeling that kids have to live up to the whole congregations expectations is really burdensome to young people. Whatever you do DO NOT GET BAPTIZED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Once that happens you are really held to very high expectations with dire consequences.
Keep coming back we are concerned for you.
Leslie