Hi Lara,
It took me years to clear the brain washing but eventually reality shown through and I realized that there was no evidence of substance for a serious belief in the God of the Bible. This "holy" book is a confusing mess far too illogical, flawed, and unclear to be inspired by a super being of any kind let alone one capable of creating the whole Universe. If there ever was an intellegent source for the Cosmos it likes to remain unseen, unknown, unheard, and completely neutral because there is NO evidence for such a being. We are left to figure it all out on our own. All we have is each other and the observable evidence around us. This is enough I think.
We have made remarkable progress. We are not "fallen" creatures but self realizing evolving animals who see farther and farther each day making our own way through the Universe and getting better at it little by little. We may someday visit other star systems, harness clean unlimited energy, cure our ills, and perhaps even overcome death. The progress we have made in just the last two centuries is powerful evidence that even greater things are possible in the future. But for now, since we are like other animals, we must eventually die. We have no evidence for a continued consciousness after death so I am inclined to believe that this life is all there is.
Sinners are not punished after death as far as we know, and good folks get no rewards. On a Universal scale I'm not sure there is a way to measure good and evil. In my own life I have bruatally killed billions of organisms by choking them with poisons, burning them with fire and chemicals, freezing, boiling, beheading, crushing, etc. all done for my hunger, convienience, or pleasure. Am I evil? I'm not justifying that which we humans have deemed evil but am just pointing out that in bacteria court I'd been seen as a mass murderer of billions. The same goes for pig, chicken, cattle, insect, and tree court. In short, evil is not universally defined so how could it be judged and punished beyond the scale of our own civilization? Hell is our fantasy of revenge reserved for our own kind as sharks,lions, and wolves are usually exempted from Hell's punishments when they kill or maul us. If a person has no conscience then they are free to be "evil" as long as they are not stopped by the rest of us. Once again, it's up to us. Many sociopathic rapists, torturers, murderers have gotten away with their crimes scott free if we didn't catch them. We have no evidence that they are punished in an after life despite what we might wish. This is what we know. Maybe there are other beings and realms and even life after death but it's all speculation-Big Foot and UFOs-because we have no hard evidence for any of it. I choose to live my life by basing it upon logic, evidence, and scientific principles whenever possible. My emotions still win sometimes, I am also often irrational but I at least don't want a philosophy system based upon emotion and irrational fantasies. No offense, but Christianity seems to be based on irrationality rather than logic and evidence so it does not appeal to me any more.