when a brother commited suicide it was the first time i experienced suicide with in the congregation.
found my self asking all sorts of questions like where does the bible say a person who suicides is dammed. when i couldnt find it in the bible i talked to a elder about it the reply i got was that he the brother in question was ill and the illness probably made his mind unstable .i wondered about him alot and why we had to assume it was prob the illness that effected his mind.it was like we had to make an excuse for him like it was unthinkable that any witness would have a reason or excuse to kill himself.no one mentioned his pain or what he must have gone throuhg to get to that point. it was all mediacally explainable (well thats what they said) so that must be the answer.and we didnt have to look beyond that point.i wondered where the emotion had gone to .how can we have all this love but not try to understand his pain.how can we help other ppl if we dont face it.
i asked even more brothers and sisters and the answer i got from them was generally the same , if a person commits suicde its lack of faith and they have given up on jehovah.jehovah never gives anyone more than they can bare so obvioulsy they are not relying on jehavah .
what a guilt trip ,prob is when your that low your in to much pain you just want relief.the reasoning on suicide just helps to compound the guilt i would think.
ive talked to 3 ppl(not witnesses) who have over dosed. all were in to much mental pain and just wanted relief once they started to talk talk and talk about how they felt and what was on thier minds.and to know they wouldnt be judged or condemed all three managed to take back their lives and get betteri wonder how many JW's feel able to talk about suicidal feelings?
there are many things i felt i could not mention.with out someone frowning at me in a reproving manor.
i suspect jesus woruld have a lot more mercy any human would know
