Posts by scooterspank

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Cried myself to sleep.........

by scooterspank in

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cried myself to sleep.

last night was the second time.

i have been out for 20 (give or take) years.

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Cried myself to sleep. Last night was the second time. I have been out for 20 (give or take) years. The problem is 1) I recently ran into a lot of witnesses, 2) I realized through observed conversation with said witnesses that my mother has started going to meetings again. I sent her an e-mail after I found out about the now infamous 7/15/11 Watchtower and I don't know what to think. She assured me of her continuing love but would't bring up the actual issue. She won't bring it up and I fear I will be reduced to a weeping pile of crap if I bring it up (or a screaming lunatic). The once fun and open relationship is now strained. There is an elephant in the room. The history of my life raised as a JW is soooooo long I wouldn't know where to start, but...my mother and I managed to take our once strained and toxic relationship to a wonderful relationship that now has a cloud hanging over it. I HATE IT!!! I hope one day I can tell my story here but it is so long and I wouldn't know where to start. On a positive note...I AM SO GLAD I FOUND THIS WEBSITE. I am getting therapy I never knew I needed. I've always thought of myself as a bit of a bad ass when it came to leaving the "truth" (or fading as you call it) but now I realize I'm still a bit of a pitiful puddle of misery (no doubt has something to do with my mother situation). I popped in to see her tonight, saw a Watchtower , then she was telling me about some old JW friends she found on Facebook and oh how happy he was pioneering, blah, blah, blah... My mother is the bomb!!! I just don't want the "organization" to suck that amazing spirit (her spirit) out of her. Going to go cry again, just remembered a wierd moment tonight. It's not that she's rejecting me but I have this paranoia... that she will. I know I'm lucky compared to most on this website and please let me say that I recognize that as far as my relationship with my mother goes I'm still very lucky but I'm terrified I'm going to lose it.

What the hell... here's a story. I was not going to meetings, living my life, WooHoo. I was dating a very nice gentleman from Chicago (I live in SC) I picked him up at the airport and we headed to a restaurant. Unbeknownst to me there was a JW family there. Fast forward a week or so... my JW sister-in-law informs me that I was seen "all over this guy" by previously stated JW, specifically the teenage daughter(who wouldn't know the meaning of "all over someone"!) and was informed that I should not kiss, in any way, my toddler nephew for fear I might give him AIDS. HAH!!! How's that for messed up?!?

I have sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many more but the wine is kicking in and I feel like cuddling with my WONDERUL, saved my life NON-jw husband. (-: (-: (-: I apologize for any bad grammar or spelling or anything else offensive I might have said.

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Feeling funky

by scooterspank in

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wow...in quite the funk.

there are so many thoughts and memories that swirl in my head when i come on this site i wouldn't know where to start.

my mother was inactive for a bit, we got along famously!!!

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Wow...in quite the funk. There are so many thoughts and memories that swirl in my head when I come on this site I wouldn't know where to start. My mother was inactive for a bit, we got along famously!!! I recently found out she is attending meetings again. Walked into her living room and saw the New World Translation of the...blah blah blah with a Watchtower folded neatly inside and thought I would lose my lunch. I've run into more than a few witnesses lately since I moved to this small town and it's creeping me out. But I digress...I feel a rant coming on so I should probably go. I feel that all of the fun my mother and I found is going to be sucked out by the org. :-(

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New light on NEW LIGHT

by Terry in

well, it just sort of came to me while i was driving.. the doctrine of new light is a false analogy.. why had i not considered this before?.

here is what i'm thinking; see if you don't agree.... jehovah's witnesses are divided into three distinct tiers of membership.. 1.governing body anointed.

2.clueless anointed.

scooterspank

Wow! You just blew my mind!

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Questions for former elders.

by evilone in

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i have a few questions regarding moving and changing congs.

i would love to hear from former elders.. .

my wife and i will be moving soon, and as i described in an earlier post we will be using the move as an opportunity to fade.

scooterspank

Don't encourage him. This is ridiculous. OMG, I've entered the twilight zone...or maybe I have repressed memories of my early days as an untouchable...

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Questions for former elders.

by evilone in

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i have a few questions regarding moving and changing congs.

i would love to hear from former elders.. .

my wife and i will be moving soon, and as i described in an earlier post we will be using the move as an opportunity to fade.

scooterspank

I was born and raised, baptized, same congregation my whole life...blah blah blah and all I can say is...What the...? Is this for real? I've been out for almost 20 years, so maybe I don't know the deal but really? I didn't move...I just stopped going. Yes I had one lady who stalked me but other than family that was about it...........Oh that's right, for some reason I never met their expectations no matter how hard I tried and tried and tried (and yes I really did try...HARD to please these a**holes) I don't recall one elder ever trying to contact me and try to get me to come back. This is ridiculous. You should read aloud, record and then listen to yourself. You sound like someone going into the witness protection program (no pun intended ) Maybe I'm just jealous.....but REALLY??? you would go to this much trouble? Just leave already!!!

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New Member - Dan Edmund - Introducing Myself - Preaching in the Philippines

by Dan Edmund in

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hi to all the brothers and sisters and friends who are using this site.

this is just to introduce myself.

my name is dan edmund, and am a fellow witness from australia.

scooterspank

Wow......the long talks and long walks must have made filling out that time card incredibly easy.

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Memorial nibbler asked to leave

by MrMonroe in

seen this?.

blogger is a partner of an ex-bethelite who attends a memorial after a decade out, takes a nibble and is asked to leave.

photographic evidence provided.. partner, meanwhile (non-jw, smoker, unmarried) is warmly welcomed.. .

scooterspank

How brave...and hilarious. I'm still shocked at the long term effects this religion has on people. I am currently suffering paranoia over the much talked about 07/15/11 Watchtower. I was raised in the "truth" but faded out many years ago (love that term by the way). I have since established a very good relationship with my family (they're all clingers) but can't help but wonder what if any effect this article will have on them and how they treat me...I guess we shall see.

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re-enforcing the shunning of immediate family - WT 7-15-11

by undercover in

july 15th wt study edition (regular dumb edition, not the dumber one).

god's rest - have you entered into it?.

subheading, when someone we love leaves jehovah.

scooterspank

I wasn't disfellowshipped, just faded out. Does this apply to us too? Hope my mother doesn't fall for this BS.

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You're All A Bunch of Bitter Apostates - Really?

by Broken Promises in

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according to an ex-jw who still half-believes in the jws, we're all a bunch of bitter apostates that can't move on.. do you agree?.

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Thank you Sabastious. I am happy to have found this site. I have been out for around 18 years. Most of my friends growing up and family stayed in. It's nice to have a place to have these discussions in an intelligent manner.

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How to remain sane while being a hypocrite?

by Kensho in

as time goes on i find it a real challenge to keep my sanity while still in "the truth" especially after considering all the rsearch i have been doing about the org.

that i have been very active in for almost 4 decades.

i have managed to be removed as an elder while staying in good standing (prayers-reading,mic carring etc.

scooterspank

"ever demanding push to report FS time which is totally unscriptual and it is just over the top for me."

My husband is in sales. When I hear him talk about his job, the business meetings, the numbers, the push to do more, more, more... it reminds me of field service. Back in the day it was how many people you talked to, how much literature left, how many return visits, blah, blah, blah......

On another note, here is one of many things that I believe pushed my father to resign as an elder and later fade out. I had two girlfriends growing up, sisters. Their mother and father divorced, he remarried, their mother was dfsd because it turned out she was a lesbian. They had shared custody. Well, he and his new wife decided they wanted to go to Bethel. So guess what this fine specimen of a JW did? He lied and said that he did not have children and left his daughters behind.