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  I decided not to go back to the KH

  by Bucholz in

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  2. experiences

  well, as i mentioned before in one of my few other posts, i've been lurking here for some time now and finally decided it was time to face the facts and take action.. i was raised a jw (4th generation) and my parents were quite zealous when they got married.

  mom was a regular pioneer and dad was a ms. i was the little jw 'rockstar' in my congregation, got baptized at 10, was giving talks and serving as an attendant at the hall and at conventions at such an early age.

  auxiliary pioneered whenever i could.

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  Bucholz

  Thanks a lot for your comments and advice guys!
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  I decided not to go back to the KH

  by Bucholz in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  well, as i mentioned before in one of my few other posts, i've been lurking here for some time now and finally decided it was time to face the facts and take action.. i was raised a jw (4th generation) and my parents were quite zealous when they got married.

  mom was a regular pioneer and dad was a ms. i was the little jw 'rockstar' in my congregation, got baptized at 10, was giving talks and serving as an attendant at the hall and at conventions at such an early age.

  auxiliary pioneered whenever i could.

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  Bucholz

  Well, as I mentioned before in one of my few other posts, I've been lurking here for some time now and finally decided it was time to face the facts and take action.

  I was raised a JW (4th generation) and my parents were quite zealous when they got married. Mom was a Regular Pioneer and Dad was a MS. I was the little JW 'rockstar' in my congregation, got baptized at 10, was giving talks and serving as an attendant at the hall and at conventions at such an early age. Auxiliary pioneered whenever I could. When I was 19 my parents divorced and eventually faded but I continued showing that 'zeal'. I had never questioned anything about the Watchtower, genuinely believed it was the truth, and tried to share it with whomever it was possible.

  But then I started thinking. "We preach so much but hardly anyone comes to the KH, are we using the right method'? Then there was the common gossip you find in every congregation, people talking about other people behind their backs, 'elderettes' you name it. I thought I had to work on my faith, so I started reading the bible more and praying. Then some scriptures started troubling me, such as when Jehovah kills 70,000 because David took a census, when Moses ordered the troops to kill all the children and women etc. I started to realize that the WT had been proclaiming the end was close for more than 100 years. I started visiting some websites, this one being the most helpful, and realized I was not alone. I bought Crisis of Conscience and 'devoured' it within one week. The generation change in 1995, the procedure the GB uses to make decisions, the Malawi-Mexico double stantard etc. It was so interesting and shocking to read at the same time. Still, I thought, "even if this religion made (and continues to make) some mistakes, we're still better than the rest, with their 'silly' beliefs in trinity, hellfire, etc. So I continued.

  I had my awakening moment in the middle of last years DC. I already knew (from reading it here btw) that there was going to be a change concerning the 'Generation that will not pass away' but didnt really give it second though. But when the speaker started discussing the overlapping generations, I just felt like throwing up, for real. It didn't make any sense! I will not go into depth as to why as it has been discussed here a lot of times. What also shocked me is that it seemed like nobody noticed, and later when I asked people to explain the 'new light' they didn't really get it. They were explaining the previous 'light'. Even though my parents are no longer active, I have friends with which I want to remain in contact (even though I now know their 'friendship' is conditional).

  I decided I was going to play their game, continue going to meetings and keep field service to the lowest possible. It worked for a little while, but then it got too difficult to even sit through an entire each meeting. I missed one meeting, then I missed another one and so on. I've been absent for 3 months now. This last month was the first I didnt hand in a time slip. Luckily, no elders have contacted me yet, but I have decided I'm not going back again.

  These last months I've been enjoying life, getting to know new people, looking at them in the eye and knowing that they won't be destroyed along with 99% of humanity simply because they are not JWs. So in my mind I have already made my decision: Today is day one of the rest of my life. If you've been reading this far thanks a lot, and I look forward to continue interacting with all of you.
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  For Singles - Would You Date/Marry Another ExJW?

  by Broken Promises in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  do you consider being an exjw a hindrance to dating?

  for example, do you find it difficult to bring up in conversation, lest you get stared at as if you have 2 heads or something?

  or you might find it difficult to explain why you've had little sexual experience in the past?.

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  I've thought about this and I think the only kind of people that would understand what I've been through is another ex-JW, there would be a lot of things in common. I kinda only picture myself spending the rest of my life with an ex-JW woman.
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  Blondie's Comments You Will Not Hear at the 05-15-2011 WT Study (NEAR)

  by blondie in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  comments you will not hear at the 05-15-2011 wt study (march 15, 2011, pages 12-16)(trust god/end near).

  review comments will be headed by comments.

  wt material from today's wt will be in black.

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  Bucholz

  Thanks Blondie, I always look forward to reading your comments.
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  I am thinking about voting

  by Bucholz in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  so, i am thinking about voting for the first time in my life.

  even though there is a questions from readers article that basically mentioned it is a conscience matter, we all know what the unwritten rule is.. problem is, even though i'm mentally out, i'm still physically in.

  do you think that if i'm seen at the polling station by the witnesses i could suffer any consequences?

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  Bucholz

  Thanks a lot for your responses, I think I'm going to take your advice and go in the early morning. I would vote by mail, but that's not possible where I live.

  I somewhat agree with d: "in this day and age big business controls everything", but I want to vote as some of the posters said, to feel I'm exercising my rights and not being explicitly told what to do by somebody else. Thanks for your advice again guys.
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  I am thinking about voting

  by Bucholz in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  so, i am thinking about voting for the first time in my life.

  even though there is a questions from readers article that basically mentioned it is a conscience matter, we all know what the unwritten rule is.. problem is, even though i'm mentally out, i'm still physically in.

  do you think that if i'm seen at the polling station by the witnesses i could suffer any consequences?

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  Bucholz

  So, I am thinking about voting for the first time in my life. Even though there is a Questions from Readers article that basically mentioned it is a conscience matter, we all know what the unwritten rule is.

  Problem is, even though I'm mentally out, I'm still physically in. Do you think that if I'm seen at the polling station by the Witnesses I could suffer any consequences? Could I just show them the article and point out that the Society says it's a conscience matter? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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  The meetings used to make me physically sick.

  by FifthOfNovember in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  it's 9:10 sunday morning.

  i'm dressed already, and just finished rushing through my watchtower a few seconds ago.

  now i need to wait for my ride to pick me up (i couldn't drive yet).

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  Bucholz

  Yes, I still attend meetings, and its really hard to do so. My panic attacks and anxiety would get so bad, I ended up going to a psychiatrist who prescribed Valium and Klonopin. Those medications have helped immensely. I feel particularly sick when they mention the 'overlapping generation' teaching.
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  Any Mexicans on this board?

  by Bucholz in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  hello guys, i've been a lurker for quite some time and am a little curious to know if there are any people from mexico regurarly posting on this board..

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  Bucholz

  I see, I'm Mexican myself, have never been to or lived in the US, but I'll post in English so as to comply with this site's guidelines, I'll post my story later, when I feel ready to so, anyway, it's nice to meet all of you people :)
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  Any Mexicans on this board?

  by Bucholz in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  hello guys, i've been a lurker for quite some time and am a little curious to know if there are any people from mexico regurarly posting on this board..

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  Bucholz

  Hello guys, I've been a lurker for quite some time and am a little curious to know if there are any people from Mexico regurarly posting on this board.
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  Americas Most Hated Family

  by hotchocolate in

  1. watchtower
  2. bible

  just watching a video on you tube that made me ill. .

  i remember watching this type of stuff as a witness and thinking they were obviously loco... funny how you don't see the blaringly obvious match to the jehovah's witness religion until the brainwashing stops.. watch from 6:28 .... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yh3hz4cgnpy&feature=topvideos.

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  Bucholz

  Saw this yesterday, didn't know whether to laugh or cry