Kingpawn....
I am not an expert in these matters, but have been married to the same women for 35+ years.
I respond to the divorce, by saying that if you plan to re-marry in the future, where will you search for a new mate? I have thought about the possiblity in the past of leaving my family arrangement and seeking a new relationship. The pronblem that I always come to deal with immediately is, with whom will I replace this mate?
I sincerely believe that replacing someone that has been a part of your life for many years is impossible. You will simply trade this steady replationship, with someone who will just bring a new set of problems and issues.
The gay part of your argument you seem to be struggling with also. I have a brother that traded his JW world for the gay life, and he is miserable. He is gay and remains in a relationship with a gay partner. He has been dealt with by the org and persons out of the org very strongly. My son-in-laws and kids don't have anything to do with him and they are not going to any meetings and haven't ever really shown any real interest in the borg.
Things will change consideralbly in the next few years for you. If you have a child that is 18, soon there will be offspring and then your relationship with your family will be different anyway. When they reach 18 or so, the children will be old enough to make their own legal decision about who they want in their life etc.
The financial part of it alone will make your life very different? Your kids will always view you differently, especially if you go the gay direction?
So, if you arn't in a situation that is dangerous to you physically, I would reconsider and try to stay in it for a while.
I hope this helps.
EDIT _ RESPOND TO TIRED:After living with same person for a few years we are all tired of the relationship. This things change up and down over the years. Find something with your mate or outside of the marraige that is interesting to you and do that for a while, try golf that will suck all of your extra energy and time?
BREEZE
Edited by - breeze on 13 October 2002 8:49:26