There are not many people whom I can talk openly about my thoughts and feelings. It's great to have a place like JWN where one can freely express himself and get honest responses.
Giordano: Lazarus if your wife is pretty much out who's left that's still in? If you faded and became totally inactive who would shun you that mattered?
We both have very close family in the org. Literally very close. Hence a classical fade is quite impossible. The easiest thing would be to move in an other area, but thats not really an option.
Fading Begins, our background has plenty of similarities, many things you said are true for me as well, particularly:
She gave me birth, and even though I have gotten into heated discussions with her, where she has walked out of my house, as long as she keeps coming back I will be there for her. I feel I owe her my love and respect, and have to understand that the truth is her life, and I could not fill that void for her no matter how hard I tried, so I do what I need to do, to be true to myself.
I wish you all the best for your further life, you deserve it.
jgnat: Given the freedom, what woud you do with your time?
So what would you like to do?
Sleep one hour longer on sundays and keep reading A Game of Thrones (Will Arya ever get back to her family?). What is your intention in asking this question?