In 1979, I came to realize that I had not become a better person as a result of being a JW, but a self-righteous, judgmental bigot! I had a war within. I determined that I was going to be better, kinder, less self-righteous and judgmental. I was also determined to take care of my mental health issues and educational deficits.
Let them hate me. It's an honor.
On a lighter note, I think apostates should start a business making placards that say "Ex-JW Human Apostates Live Here! JW's, avoid us!" We could sell these to householders who like to sleep in on Saturdays or who generally don't like to be interrupted by JW's. The profits could be used to start an education fund for apostates who wll need to earn a better living when they exit.