Posts by onightdivine

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How have you felt since you learned TTATT?

by tornapart in

it's been 4 years since it happened to me.

an almost overnight experience.

i read ray franz coc in 3 days and that was it.

onightdivine

I felt that my doubts were finally validated.

But there is still a lingering cloud of fear of breaking away completely from the "friendships" I've formed. I invested too much, gave a lot... and while it can be explained as the effect of "sunk cost fallacy", I'm taking it slowly and still giving my shot at relating to my very few closest "friends" at a personal non-spiritual level.

I don't know how else to go but I promised myself I won't be as gullible as before.

Regarding the TTATT, it is freedom. Not going to die while blindly following those heartless corrupt Governing Body members. Everyone else, wake up and stop judging the "weak ones"!!!!!

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Where are you from?

by BeautifulMind in

jw
friends

i know we are all anonymous for our own personal reasons, so i understand if you would rather not say.

but if you don't mind sharing that would be cool.

i currently live in georgia, usa.

onightdivine

And still no one else from Southeast Asia (except for Divergent).. Hi to everyone from across the globe.

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Converts

by Alive! in

i've noticed there seems to be a higher percentage of born-ins here....who are the converted jws?.

does anyone care to share how they got converted?.

onightdivine

I was lovebombed at the time I needed the feeling of being cared for and loved by other people, aside from my family.

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WT Mtg "read scriptures" are only to be read by a 1 brother???

by Olivia Wilde in

we had co visit recently & it appears that the co told the elders of the congregation that the scriptures indicated on the wt to be "read" on the watchtower study are only to be read by 1 brother in the entire study.... the elder conducting the watchtower announced that at the wt mtg... i was like what???

only men?....

has anyone else had this occur in their congregation?

onightdivine

Yes... in our cong until last year anyone could raise their hands and read the scriptures cited during the WT study.

But now it's only 1 designated male reader throughout the program. And he doesn't even wait for others to find the scripture and goes on to read in his irritatingly loud grandstanding voice.

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Where are you from?

by BeautifulMind in

jw
friends

i know we are all anonymous for our own personal reasons, so i understand if you would rather not say.

but if you don't mind sharing that would be cool.

i currently live in georgia, usa.

onightdivine

So far nobody else from Southeast Asia.. will be a challenge to go for meetups, I guess.

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Where are you from?

by BeautifulMind in

jw
friends

i know we are all anonymous for our own personal reasons, so i understand if you would rather not say.

but if you don't mind sharing that would be cool.

i currently live in georgia, usa.

onightdivine

Southeast Asia

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Hello everyone! I am new here and want to tell you about myself - my bio

by Hollywood20 in

jw
friends

grew up in east la in a bad neighborhood to a black mother and white father.

i never knew my father because he died in a car accident when i was a few weeks old.

my mother converted as a jw soon after when two sisters came to her door and offered her comfort, which was something she needed.

onightdivine

My hugs for you, Hollywood.

I am so sorry to hear about what you've gone through and are going through right now. Like what Tenacious said, slowly surround yourself with people of similar interests so that you have space to breathe and be yourself.

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The Psychological Manipulation of the Watchtower.

by The Rebel in

jw
friends

when someone interacts with you they can influence your thoughts and also manipulate your thinking.

i became aware that this is what i was doing with householders on the ministry.

we chipped away at householders with manipulation, and called it a return call.

onightdivine

I always felt sick to the stomach when trying to "preach" to someone while doing the field serve-us because it was like a practical exam, an exercise of what was taught at the kingdumb hall essentially as ways to hook people, let their guard down, and manipulate them by sweet words and love bombing.

Because my self-esteem had begun to diminish when I joined this cult, I tried to avoid talking when meeting householders and let my pioneer partner do it. And as I stood beside them I felt sorry for the householder because he/she was being promised the paradise, everlasting life, but at a great cost to his/her sanity and entire life in the future.

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Hey everybody! Just droppin' in :)

by macys in

jw
friends

it feels so good to be free from the jdub cult!

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onightdivine

Welcome to the forum, macys!

I'm glad you are finally free. If your circumstances permit we'd like to ask you to stand... ooops. I mean, let us your hear your stories if you can share.

Happy to have you here.

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My First Birthday.....

by The Marvster in

i awoken today and realised immidiately i'm 44 today... and after 3 years of being out, decided to acknowledge my birthday.... i'm off out to treat myself to a big hearty breakfast with cup of tea in the local weatherspoon's by the massive pond full of weird bird-life, later today i'm giving myself a gift of a 90 minute relaxation session in a float tank down by canary wharf in london.... only really have 2 close friends (it's a slow process trusting people agian) and they probably won't be able to see me today, but i'm sure i'll have a belated surprise from them both.... the first thing i did when i remembered was to rush to the computer, connect to the web and put on stevie wonder's 'happy birthday', as i listen to it, tears stream down my face... all those years of my life stolen ' but..... i'm free....'.

onightdivine

Happy Birthday to you 🎵

Happy Birthday to you🎵

Happy Birthday dear Marvste r🎼

Happy Birthday to you!! 🎶🍰