Sorry to hear about all your anxiety Phoebe. You are in the process of jettisoning your faith in man-made organizations.
Over and over believers are asked to not put too much trust in men, but to direct it toward God:
Psalms 118:8 - [It is] better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man.
Jeremiah 17:5 - Thus saith the LORD; Cursed [be] the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and whose heart departeth from the LORD.
Psalms 118:8-9 - [It is] better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man.
Galatians 6:3 - For if a man think himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceiveth himself.
Romans 13:8 - Owe no man any thing, but to love one another: for he that loveth another hath fulfilled the law.
2 Timothy 3:13-17 - But evil men and seducers shall wax worse and worse, deceiving, and being deceived.
Ephesians 2:8 - For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: [it is] the gift of God:
Galatians 5:17 - For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.
Proverbs 3:5-6 - Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
John 15:4 - Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me.
At first I went from trust in the organization to trusting in secular "experts". That lasted for about 8 years. Slowly I began to deal with my beliefs and ended up dealing with God on his terms- through Christ and none other.
Take your time. Do your homework. Relax. Have some fun.