Yeah I was born into it.
Even as a young child, I would not want to go to the meetings and it would raise hell in the house with my mom yelling at me and my dad "not a j dub" looking on quietly. Then when he got tired of the crap he would turn on me and make me go, to shut my mom up .
I always hated going to someones house and try to force religion on them. I married in the troof and both of us faded away. After 11 yrs, my wife abandoned me and the 4 children.
Talk about trauma!! Of course all the j dubs were yelling at me " if you had been going to meetings, this wouldn't have happened".
I needed a wife and a mother for my children, so when a young jw girl moved 75 miles to meet me, we dated and under the watchful eyes of the elders "I hate those bastards" we finally married. What a stupid foolish thing to do. I should have found some kind mature loving WORLDLY woman.
So now I have all of my many relatives and hers all in the borg and judging us. I tried to fade and it did work for a while.
Then under the pressure of my wife and all the relatives I caved and went to meetings regular avoiding door to door as much as possible.
Then 1975 was approaching and I felt, What the hell. Maybe they know something I don't and so I did attend more meetings and the door to door crap I so hated.
Then (they asked me) to be an elder. I turned it down as I doubted my ability. My wife loved the thought of being an elderet and pushed hard to shame me into doing their will.
They threw the old "sin of omission" thing and talked me into being an elder. They didn't know that I was an elder with many doubts and a strong dislike for most all of the elders.
Moved to another state with a letter of recomendation to the new elders. Met them and almost puked at what I saw and refused to stay in the position of elder.
This of course put me in a seat right next to satan and the long drawn out inevitable hate I had for the jw's religion and the equally inevitable hate the elders had for me finally ended my marriage my contacts with relatives and a couple of my children.
I blame a lot of this on the wounds (my mom and my ex wife's suffered) in life that kept them in the cult and a large amount on my own STUPIDITY and lack of common sense due to being kept in a religion as a child, that prevented me from learning from social contacts with, THE REAL WORLD.
My moms mind and my and both my jw wives minds were saturated with LA LA LAND THINKING and tons of guilt and shame installed in our minds by the wbts and the molestation both physicaly and mentally done to these three poor women.
Sorry that I went in to so much on this thread, I started and it seemed to just pour out with out my knowing. Along with the tears.
Outoftheorg
