Narcissistic;
"A bad acid trip" or he was raised a JW and hated
the world.
mP:
I would suggest that you read about the monumental struggle where the many jewish groups (Rome woudl call them terrorists) were trying to break away from Rome. They literally were killing their own countrymen or non jews. The jewish religion is unfortunately very much based on racism and separatism. The OT contains many directions to wipe out non jews and rarely talks about integration. The jews also believed that God would give them victory so they fought, and they lost. This is why Rome had to destroy jerusalem, because the religion was a poison in the much the same way Islam in many places is the primary motivating factory in their madness. Lucky for us they are over there, but in the times of Rome the empire was nt that lucky.
Everything John and Jesus mentions and refers to was about the struggle just before and after 70ad.
Rome had to ban jews from Jerusalem and judea. They also changed the name of Judea to Palestine as anothe punishment. I put it to you jesus was another creation to tell the jews to wait for the kingdom in heaven and be good slaves and tax payers to Rome.
As a survivor John was angry that his jewish world and the jewish god had abandoned them, with many jews killed in their struggle. He writes what happened, and extra stuff which he dreams did happen, but didnt.