Absolutely no one would have guessed I was depressed to the point of thinking about suicide every waking minute. Most people said they wanted to have a marriage as happy as our was - he was abusing me.
Right there with you, Lady Lee!
As a teenager my natural expression caused people to tell me, "You look like you're about to cry!" My mother was constantly telling me to "put a coat hanger in your mouth" ( picture it). Our family looked squeaky clean from outside too. But my father was verbally abusive. I hid in my room as much as possible to avoid him.