(((((Eisenstein))))))
Sadness and anger seems to be the main 2 emotions I felt after leaving the org. Sadness that I no longer felt it was the truth and anger that I had allowed these people to dupe me. And yet, I still had this deep spiritual need.
The way that I dealt with this was to pray more, read my Bible without the WTS publications to interpret it for me, and I started attending other churches. The first time I set foot in a church I was so sure that demons would get me! But they didn't (whew!) However, no matter how many churches I attended, I realized that not a single one of them had the complete truth and most of them did not have that much brotherly love either.
Soon it began to occur to me that maybe no religion had the truth because it was up to US to develop a personal relationship with God. This led me to various religions of an eastern slant, meditation, lucid dreaming, gnosticism, etc. I took what I needed and discarded the rest.
I hope this information helps you. However, if you still feel that the JWs have the "truth", go back there and give it another shot. We all must find our way, no matter how dark it seems at the moment.
I wish you well on your spiritual journey.
Love,
Robyn
Edited to add: In your bio you said "baptized with fire in 1987". What exactly do you mean by that statement? I have been away from the org for a long time. Is that some sort of new teaching? I know what it means to me....what does it mean to JWs?
Edited by - robdar on 14 November 2002 18:17:37