Dog1- I was an elder just like you with the same rationale- get your hands on the Ray Franz books- be sure you read them in private.
It's time you got the inside scoop on what happens behind the scenes. You may not believe what you read at first but it will at least give you something to think about.
As you read the first chapter/second chapter of the first book--It will make you put it down but give it a chance.
I started reading them a few years ago and still have to go back and re-read because its so hard to understand that after giving 30 years of my life to this organization, the governing body really don't care about me in the big picture of things- it's ORGANIZATION FIRST- people second and I don't think that's what JESUS taught.
In your next elders meeting I dare you say you don't believe everything what the GB says. OR you don't agree with that particular point of the GB. All eyes will be on you and the floor will be yours to say how you really feel. You know and everybody on this forum knows you CANNOT question the GB and get away with it- your years in the truth- your service and time as a GREAT elder ALL flies out the window.- just saying.
Please read Ray Franz books and meditate on what you read- it's mind blowing!