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my name is cynthia... i have had depression as a child ( undiagnosed ) father was possibly bipolar and mother is depressive both undiagnosed.....my journry into the org along with how the depression became a mental breakdown , which i thought was jehovah removing his spirirt.

my sruggle with the elders......and the many ways and people i sought help from.....well it is all a long story......... included in it.

jws i have known with mental health issues.......breakdowns.......psych docs have had discussed this with........ i would like to relate my story.....i was so ill..nearly catotonic i did not go to a hospital but if i relate how i felt.........it was clear...... how i was afraid of crossing the street because the green light may have been really a red light and i was told so often by the elders that my thinking was wrong...... ie " they were showing love by isolating me ( a depressed person) because i needed to be active and i was not complying..they said they tried ll that they coudl when in reality it was i always i that reached out to them ( thinking they were chosen of god)...... well..i just gave a sampler....my story is very long...i have been tenatious i read so much ( even before becoming a jw ) about depression and dysfunctional families... i was a teacher did not gte my ma ..people here know why i am sure..... well...before i write this story of mine...i would like to ask..if i can do it in intallments........those i relate my story to say i should write a book..........i am not " out of the woods yet".........by the way.......i came to the point that i could not leave my room..... i live in nyc and i was able to speak to bethel elders including g. gangus.... i was very sincere......naive idealistic.............i asked qiestions thinking that surly god understood ...that my motives were good... .

Searchin50

Hi Cyn Welcome, Please tell us your story.

However you would like, I'm sure we can relate with you.

Sounds very intresting !!!!!!!

Searchin50

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My Story

by ambush22 in

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well im 22 years old raised as a jw for the beteer (or worse) ,part of my life, i was on the beverly hills cong.

in dallas until 89, then my parents moved 2 farmers branch, we were then in the walnut hill and farmers branch congergations.

i was in the ministry school from the time i was 8 untill 16, i was never baptised.

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Hi Ambush Nice to meet you , thanks for telling your story.

Get yourself some counseling or therapy, it's to hard to do it alone

and you don't have to! there is a lot of help out there.

And for goodness sake go back to school get good education.

Keep posting every day on this board, let me know how your doing.

Because i care -------------------- Searchin50

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Some more March pics

by Simon in

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not sure how well this will work, but here goes .... http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/media/silentlambsmarch/default.htm.

it should let you play a filmshow, view thumbnails etc .... (may take a while to load)

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Hey Simon__________ YOU THE MAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you so much for the pictures, they are great. nugh said

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Sundays New York Times

by kelsey007 in

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the catholic priest made the news again in sundays paper- nothing on the silent lambs wt march.

Searchin50

Yes I noticed that also no media coverage,very odd.

I suppose the JWS are not as important as they think.

A scripture they always used regarding themselves,

1 COR: 4:9 what a joke, tickles me

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Newbie here

by Bebop in

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greetings and salutations, .

this is my very first post and i 've been introduced to this haven by my wife inbetweendays.

i'm looking forward to conversing with you all and sharing views and discussing all things anti-jw.

Searchin50

Hi Bebop welcome, may you enjoy your stay!!!

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More Silentlambs Pics

by jst2laws in

i will try to come back later and give editorial comments.

a familiar family.

group growing as we get ready.

Searchin50

I love the pics,what an effort you all made to let the world

know this is just another example of CLERGY hiding behind the cloth.

Thanks again Searchin50

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I got a report on the March!!

by Mulan in

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a friend at the march, just called me to tell me how the march is going.

it's not raining and hasn't rained!!

nearly 3 hours into it, and it is still going.

Searchin50

OMG I'm so happy right now doing happy dance!!!!!!!!!!

I knew there was something about JARACZ I didn't like.

As Abarham Lincoln said ( You Can Fool some of the People

Some of the Time But you can't Fool All the People All the Time )

Thanks very much for the info.

Searchin50

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New Here

by rwagoner in

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former jw..new on the board and glad to see it so active.

the latest round of "new light" in the recent km has reversed the rules and once again my family has been told to shun me.

i da'd in my early 20's after being very active since childhood and have been out of the "borg" now for nearly 18 years.. i look forward to reading and posting as i get more familiar with the names here.. rgw.

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Hi rwagoner nice to meet you I'm sure you will like it here .

A lot of nice people post in here, it can be addictive!!

WELCOME

Searchin50