Posts by BluePill2

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Regrets for knowing the TATT? Strange feeling overcoming...

by BluePill2 in

today is a strange day.. i have been out of the borg for a while now.

some years have passed and i thoroughly enjoy the freedom, not having to bend my mind and rape my soul to force myself to do and say things that i don't feel or believe.

i started my own business, got a wonderful girlfriend and made some friends (that are not monsters like the wt$ likes to portray others).. my parents, siblings, brothers-in-law, cousins, aunts, uncles, ex-wife, "friends" and my daughter, have cut their contact to me.

BluePill2

You are wonderful people and it is situations like this one that make this website such a fantastic place to be. It really helps. I am grateful for all the comments here, the private messages (Flipper, thank you for your pm! It meant a lot to me.)

I had to go away over the weekend to get my thoughts off from all the pain and it was the right decision. Doing something that you like helps to see the joy in Life again. In midst of pain is also joy, as strange as it sounds.

Then I did something that I never thought would be necessary. I wrote a lengthy letter/statement to the court and youth care institution to explain my situation, mentioning all the points where the Borg becomes a danger to teenagers and small children. Let's see how that turns out. I never wanted to go into a full frontal fight over this, but they leave me no other option. I hope this helps me to get access to my kid. It will require lots of energy and strength to fight this through, but I am ready.

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Regrets for knowing the TATT? Strange feeling overcoming...

by BluePill2 in

today is a strange day.. i have been out of the borg for a while now.

some years have passed and i thoroughly enjoy the freedom, not having to bend my mind and rape my soul to force myself to do and say things that i don't feel or believe.

i started my own business, got a wonderful girlfriend and made some friends (that are not monsters like the wt$ likes to portray others).. my parents, siblings, brothers-in-law, cousins, aunts, uncles, ex-wife, "friends" and my daughter, have cut their contact to me.

BluePill2

Newly Enlightened: I am so sorry for your brother. That is so sad. It made me think. Thank you for sharing it here, maybe others - like me, will read your story and remember that there is no coming back from such a decision. Big hug to you.

label licker: Big hug. Reading about your mother hurts. I appreciate your openness by sharing your private memories here. Appreciate that. Thank you.

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Regrets for knowing the TATT? Strange feeling overcoming...

by BluePill2 in

today is a strange day.. i have been out of the borg for a while now.

some years have passed and i thoroughly enjoy the freedom, not having to bend my mind and rape my soul to force myself to do and say things that i don't feel or believe.

i started my own business, got a wonderful girlfriend and made some friends (that are not monsters like the wt$ likes to portray others).. my parents, siblings, brothers-in-law, cousins, aunts, uncles, ex-wife, "friends" and my daughter, have cut their contact to me.

BluePill2

Just to explain (some have mentioned this): Visitation rights are one thing. The reality is somewhat different. You end up always chasing your "rights" and it isn't as easy as it looks on a written paper. I do have the rights, but she moved away, leaving no address behind, so I lost contact for a pretty long time. Then you have to decide how you will handle the results, and and and. Court rooms are one thing, the day to day hassles of dealing with the situation are another thing.

I thank you all for the pm that I received. I will re-read them.

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Regrets for knowing the TATT? Strange feeling overcoming...

by BluePill2 in

today is a strange day.. i have been out of the borg for a while now.

some years have passed and i thoroughly enjoy the freedom, not having to bend my mind and rape my soul to force myself to do and say things that i don't feel or believe.

i started my own business, got a wonderful girlfriend and made some friends (that are not monsters like the wt$ likes to portray others).. my parents, siblings, brothers-in-law, cousins, aunts, uncles, ex-wife, "friends" and my daughter, have cut their contact to me.

BluePill2

Dear friends,

I don't know how to thank you. Your words and thoughts are more than you might think. I appreciate your precious time to write these things up.

As I've said, I took off to walk (it always helps, sometimes to go for a run as your brain chemistry changes). Usually I am very optimistic and don't tend to depression, but lately this has become a burden.

You have helped me to carry it a bit more along the way.

I will hang in there, my daughter will thank me one day. Always fighting (first because of my change in thinking about the Borg and now because of family issues) is exhausting.

You are all wonderful human beings and with your posts have done more than my own mother for the past year. I wish you all the Best in your Lifes. May we all find peace and a meaningful Life. One day I want to be able to say that it was all worth it. Right now, the consequences of seeking freedom felt more like a kick to the stomach.

Thank you all!!!!

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Regrets for knowing the TATT? Strange feeling overcoming...

by BluePill2 in

today is a strange day.. i have been out of the borg for a while now.

some years have passed and i thoroughly enjoy the freedom, not having to bend my mind and rape my soul to force myself to do and say things that i don't feel or believe.

i started my own business, got a wonderful girlfriend and made some friends (that are not monsters like the wt$ likes to portray others).. my parents, siblings, brothers-in-law, cousins, aunts, uncles, ex-wife, "friends" and my daughter, have cut their contact to me.

BluePill2

Thank you wizzstick, I have answered you. Appreciate your concerns. I will probably take a walk or do something nice, can't be in the office and watching family pictures it's breaking my heart.

Good people around here.

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Regrets for knowing the TATT? Strange feeling overcoming...

by BluePill2 in

today is a strange day.. i have been out of the borg for a while now.

some years have passed and i thoroughly enjoy the freedom, not having to bend my mind and rape my soul to force myself to do and say things that i don't feel or believe.

i started my own business, got a wonderful girlfriend and made some friends (that are not monsters like the wt$ likes to portray others).. my parents, siblings, brothers-in-law, cousins, aunts, uncles, ex-wife, "friends" and my daughter, have cut their contact to me.

BluePill2

Today is a strange day.

I have been out of the Borg for a while now. Some years have passed and I thoroughly enjoy the freedom, not having to bend my mind and rape my soul to force myself to do and say things that I don't feel or believe. I started my own business, got a wonderful girlfriend and made some friends (that are not monsters like the WT$ likes to portray others).

My parents, siblings, brothers-in-law, cousins, aunts, uncles, ex-wife, "friends" and my daughter, have cut their contact to me. I have no blood and flesh family. Until recently I have coped with that, accepting, dealing with the card that has been dealt.

Today I woke up to a strong feeling of hatred, because these bastards keep anybody that I have cared for captive. That feeling quickly jumped back and forth to a feeling of loss and regrets about knowing the TATT. I lived in an "artificial world", but was not aware of it. Life wasn't easy, I hated going house to house, but it was some kind of fake dream.

Feelings and tears are running strong today. To the point where I would like to just put a gun to my temple and end it now. If I go back there will be pain, I can't undo the past and can't force myself to the Borg anymore - the last 2 years made me sick to my stomach. Staying out and being cut off from seeing my daughter is killing me (and no, don't give me advice about legal proceedings, being there, done that, it is terrible, has cost me a fortune and I am out of funds to fight legal battles, besides that, it turns out that this battle is not won in the courtrooms - it is a mental battle).

Sorry if this sounds like a rant. Wanted to see if others have felt the same way. Wish you all the Best.

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Where In the Bible Does It Say To Hate People Who Leave The Organization? Apostates and the District Convention Theme of Hating Them!

by AuntConnie in

i am back from bakersfield and i can say it was the best district convention ever!

the end is coming soon, a few of the annointed were speaking about 2014 possibly being the year that jehovah would destroy all the hateful apostates!

the focus of this convention was not on love or the message of the good news of the kingdom.

BluePill2

You don't seem to understand AuntConnie, hobos desperately need more magazines. The more the better. Also cats. Cats need desperately more Watchtower mags!

Cat hobo

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A "New" Revelation Grand Climax at Hand book might be released for Book/Bible Study?

by booker-t in

jw
friends

a few elders i know said they hoped the wts would release a "new" revelation book to be studied during 2014. they said the jws need to be spiritually encourage at the "closeness" of the end and studying a "new" revelation book for 2014 might help shape up the flock of inactive, faders, disfellowship/disassociated jws to coming back.

posters what do you think a new rev book for 2014..

BluePill2

No matter how many "new" new Revelation books they come up with - you can't get rid of the dragons and John being on the best drug trip ever.

They could also print a longer correctional sheet (like last time, only with more changes and changes of the changes). It's cheaper.

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Revelation Climax book - what are the most ridiculous claims in it?

by RayPublisher in

i got to thinking about all the strange interpretations in the old revelation climax book now that i have perused it again on pdf.

(thanks atlantis!).

does anyone care to toss in their two cents on what are the most outrageous and/or ridiculous claims in it?.

BluePill2

That there is some old dude in the sky. He created the universe and shit.

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Blue Jeans BANNED by Jehovahs Witnesses Governing body

by Watchtower-Free in

for anybody attending a international convention .. 5 body of elders letters just leaked .

"applicant instructions".. ********************.

applicants must be exemplary in every respect, including dress and grooming.

BluePill2

AndDontCallMeShirley: This is pure comedy gold, right there. You should write more for the WT$.