Hey bud. feel free to PM me anytime. I'm always up for a convo.
A statement you made in the last post I want to revisit. You said the religion ruined your life.
Your life is FAR from ruined. It hasn't even started. Your feelings, isolation, social anxiety, anger.....these are not only JW kid issues. It just sucks to be a teenager sometimes.
Learning to enjoy being alone at times, and to tune out the social noise and issues while trying to find what you love and are passionate about IS life and a good way to grow up.
I realize its hard to know what I'm talking about. I wish I could get you in my brain for a second so it would "click".
We all need community eventually. Communities are varied. This board is a community, school is a community, church is, workmates, peers, friends, family......we crave community. And we need community for two reasons. Something to give to, and somethign that gives to us.
Your communities are wacked. So I get it. But you will make and find new ones.
The relgion has fault. No doubt. But you will go alot farther both with yourself and empathizing with others, if you recognize that ultimately we all are responsible for ourselves. Your parents and grandmother and everyone here, are all responsible for themselves. They may have been lied to, but they didn't have to believe it. Many of us don't anymore in fact. They may have to hide who they are, but its a consequence of actions.
We and YOU are responsible for our actions period. Blaming the religion isn't going to help. It doesn't mean they are not at fault.....it just means looking at it like that won't help.
Do you see where I am coming from?