After all, this is your life and you are the one who gets to make the rules.
Don't fall into the duty treadmill, the grind, the ratrace, the endles thankless loop of WHAT you must do next and next and next.
The evil of the Jehovah's Witness life and lifestyle is the awful disparity between the promise and the reality.
It took me 30 years of servitude to an organization to reach this conclusion.
The promise given newly inducted baptised dedicated publishers is that their lives will take on a purpose that leads to everlasting life of fulfillment with Jehovah's organization supplying support and strength.
The dismal reality is that all their lives will consist of is an endless list of WHAT they must do next. They will be straitjacketed with duty, repression, forced activity, monitoring and precious little downtime for relaxation and recharging.
The JW lifestyle will drain away their finances, their leisure, their education and their social identity. It will subject their children to deprivations as they give up one thing after another which makes them fully functioning members of their neighborhood, school and community.
HOW they live will deteriorate into a public spectacle of holier-than-thou perfectionisms brought on by an obsessive focus on WHAT MUST BE DONE to please Jehovah.
And somewhere, along this rigid path, you begin to realize that you are NOT happy, that the WTS is NOT what is is purported to BE, and you want to love and serve GOD away from WTS rules and regulations, you then find yourself in yet another dilemma that the men of the WTS have conjured up for those that eventually "catch on" to their scheme.
MY BELIEVE this is still worth the peace of mind and the freedom that you will achieve and accomplish when you find the courage to LEAVE.