Posts by sweetone2377

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Another reinstatement meeting coming up...

by MavMan in

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friends

i turned in a request (by letter) for reinstatement last week and ive been informed that i will meeting with my original judicial committee this coming wednesday.

im very excited and happy, but at the same time i want to be careful how i conduct myself.

in the last meeting in early march, my reinstatement request was turned down.

sweetone2377

All I can say MavMan, is that, if this is what you want, then i hope you get back in.

I remember after being DF'd, I wanted back in desperately. Because it was familiar territory. If I had known then what I know now, I would never have gone back. Hell, I even DA'd myself before I knew just what a crock of kaka they really are.

With all the info and the light you have been given, why would *want* to return to the darkness of the WTS?

Shelly
Former victim and recovering wonderfully from a broken spirit
Smile, because we all have been freed from slavery!!

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Choosing for your kids

by Carmel in

i wonder how those of you who grew up in the borg and have left are dealing with your kids' choices when it comes to religion.... i know this was one promise i made to myself that i would never coerce my kids into going to church or religious meetings when they were old enough to stay home by themselves.

i kept that committment and only one of the five chose to follow a different religious path.

both i and my wife respected her decision and have never done anything to pressure her to "come back" or to have any religious inclinations of any kind.

sweetone2377

other than trying to explain to a 3 year old that I am not bad because I don't go to Kingdom Hall, I really haven't had to face this yet.

Shelly
Former victim and recovering wonderfully from a broken spirit
Smile, because we all have been freed from slavery!!

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DF'd, DA'd and anyone else...

by sweetone2377 in

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friends

do you still have all your wt literature from your days in the "truth"??.

when i moved from ky to ohio nearly 3 years ago, i left all my books, notes, everything, on the bookshelves in my home.

i never packed them up - nothing.

sweetone2377

Not only did I leave all my JW publications behind, but I did it when I moved from Ky to Ohio three years ago!

OMG Michelle, that is too funny!!! I was in the eastern most tip of the state, in Pike County.

.S. Did you see that we are having a XJW get-together this friday? You should come! Email me, if you are interested!

Actually I haven’t seen that yet. Must have overlooked it somewhere.

Shelly
Former victim and recovering wonderfully from a broken spirit
Smile, because we all have been freed from slavery!!

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Subject: Jehovah's Witnesses Under Fire Around the

by myself in

i received this in my e-mail today and thought i'd pass it along .

sent: saturday, march 30, 2002 12:15 pm.

eritrea, georgia, greece, kazakhstan, romania, russia, rwanda, singapore,.

sweetone2377

13 countries?!

I thought they only put 3 in a yearbook. Interesting. They must really be needing (or wanting) some sympathy/emphathy.

Shelly
Former victim and recovering wonderfully from a broken spirit
Smile, because we all have been freed from slavery!!

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DF'd, DA'd and anyone else...

by sweetone2377 in

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friends

do you still have all your wt literature from your days in the "truth"??.

when i moved from ky to ohio nearly 3 years ago, i left all my books, notes, everything, on the bookshelves in my home.

i never packed them up - nothing.

sweetone2377

Yeah, I'm really starting to wish that I had packed up my library with me. But I have a baby sister that i'm sure inherited it. I would like to have mine because of all the little notes I always wrote in the margins, etc (I was quite the studier, you'd think something would have triggered my brain into action, but it didn't). Just so that I could compare what I was being taught then, to what I'm learning now and what the WTS has taught in the past before me.

The JWs do visit my neighbor. I've thought about asking him to ask them for a reasoning book for me. But I would want to make sure he didn't tell them exactly who it was for, as I'm not prepared to talk to them face to face just yet. And I don't really want any impression left on them that I can be counted as a return visit or possible study.

Shelly
Former victim and recovering wonderfully from a broken spirit
Smile, because we all have been freed from slavery!!

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Input please

by orangefatcat in

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i have been wondering, just how many of us here started looking into the injustices of the wtbs after being disfellowshipped.

did some of us look here in order to justify our anger because we were ousted.

did some have hatred right away or was it gradual?

sweetone2377

I saw mistreatment of others in the congregation by the brothers. But when I was DF'd I really wanted back in. I had absolutely no knowledge about any other way of life. Once I was reinstated, it just wasn't the same for me. I moved out of state, leaving everything JW related behind and less than a year later I DA'd myself.

I came to iNet searching out people who had been "ousted" by the Society. Mostly because I missed the familiarity, and because I wanted to know that i was not alone in feeling this way. I didn't want to go back, but I felt that I needed to be around those who had went through something similar to myself.

It wasn't untill I came to this site that I actually started to really question, and question hard, the teachings of the WTS. I admit, alot of things just didn't seem loving to me, but I had just taken it all in and said, "well, this is how Jehovah wants it then..."

Here I am, 2 years later, half way through CofC, written by a man I never knew existed. I'm shocked at what I'm finding and I'm researching everything.

I definately will not be returning to borg - EVER. No longer because I'm hurt or angry or miss my family (who disowned me only after I began searching out the real truth). But because now I know just how wrong they are.

Shelly
Former victim and recovering wonderfully from a broken spirit
Smile, because we all have been freed from slavery!!

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DF'd, DA'd and anyone else...

by sweetone2377 in

jw
friends

do you still have all your wt literature from your days in the "truth"??.

when i moved from ky to ohio nearly 3 years ago, i left all my books, notes, everything, on the bookshelves in my home.

i never packed them up - nothing.

sweetone2377

Do you still have all your WT literature from your days in the "truth"??

When I moved from KY to Ohio nearly 3 years ago, I left all my books, notes, everything, on the bookshelves in my home. I never packed them up - nothing. I was so afraid that having that stuff in my home would influence me to go back.

Anyone else ever feel this way??

What made me think of this is, lately, I've been doing alot of study on my own (and with help from the iNet) on the JWs. I'm still a little skeptical of having any of their literature in my home, or anything about them really. But I am finally half way through CofC, and have printed copies of the elder's book, the organized book, and some JC meeting transcripts, to give me a starting point.

Anyone else feel weird about having any type of WT propaganda around the house?

Shelly
Former victim and recovering wonderfully from a broken spirit
Smile, because we all have been freed from slavery!!

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Do you still get Nightmares?

by sleepy in

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friends

do you still get nightmares?.

because last night i had the crap scared out of me.. i cant remember what i had been dreaming about, but something shocked me and i opened my eyes and i saw a figure standing beside my bed.. my body when straight into fight mode.. now this is the weirest part for me.i shouted at the top of my voice , very loudly "what the f**k" yet it wasn't me speaking , my body sort of took over and said it .my eyes sort of adjusted and the figure disappeared and a i think at that point i became wide awake.. my wife was woken up by my shouting.. my heart was racing and my hair standing on end.. i have had a similiar experience once before but i didn't shout.. the fact that i woke up shouting, really freaked me out.. what the crap was going on in my head?

sweetone2377

I know that with me, growing up as a Dub, we were pumped with so much garbage about demons. We were advised not to buy from tag sales, or anything used because it could bring a demon into our home. I was constantly in fear, having nightmares, even when awake, when it was dark, I can remember jumping from the hall into my bed so that nothing could creep out from under my bed and pull me under. I was 18 or 19 while the jumping thing was going on and was living by myself.

I think that the WTS has always pumped us so full of all this crap, all this "do what we tell you to do, live the way we tell you to and you'd better ask us about that before you decide to go to that movie or wear that outfit, etc etc etc, or you'll be destroyed at Armageddon and God won't love you" crap. And it is so hard to cleanse ourselves of it. Even after years of being out of the borg and thinking for ourselves, it can still creep in from time to time. Especially in our subconscience.

Shelly
Former victim and recovering wonderfully from a broken spirit
Smile, because we all have been freed from slavery!!

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Outrageous memorial experience sigh

by Liquidizer in

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the following one is from h2o, written by mackoz:.

new procedure for d-f'd at the memorial?

i've gone from being an elder to being a man who can hardly bring himself to open his well-thumbed bible.

sweetone2377

That is truely sad. I can just imagine what serge of varying emotions ran through this man.

BTW, when I was DF'd in 1997, procedure (as explained to me by the men on the power trip) was that I was to sit in the back, near the door. I was to wait in the car. I had my watch set by the KH clock. My dh (not baptized then) would come out and let me know just when they started (as they were always fellowshipping well past starting time). I was not to come in untill the opening prayer was over and had to leave before the closing prayer. I do not recall the Memorial that year. I'm not sure if I was allowed to handle the emblems or not. But the sitting in the back row near the door....I do remember that all DF'd or even those who had been either publicly or privately reproved were required to sit in the back row. As if we all had leprosy or something.

Now, how things are done now, I don't know. I can only imagine that they have gotten worse.

Shelly
Former victim and recovering wonderfully from a broken spirit
Smile, because we all have been freed from slavery!!

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Apostate Yearbook!!!!

by VeniceIT in

well think gave me a great idea.

lets start an apostate yearbook.

i think it could include things over the past few years, to let us know how we're doing!!!!.

sweetone2377

Speaking of "apostate", I remember going to District assemblies and there was a person dressed in a gorilla suit outside. He held a sign saying "Don't let the Society make a monkey of you".

*trying to quiet down the laughter*

They made monkeys of all of us. We were the lucky ones who evolved.

Shelly
Former victim and recovering wonderfully from a broken spirit
Smile, because we all have been freed from slavery!!