Cassiline,
Welcome to the board, we're glad to add another member and look forward to your insight and experiences.
Like almost all of us you have experienced the different emotions of leaving this controlling religion, JW/Watchtower Society. I think once you reach the anger level, brought about by the realization of the lies, you've overcome all the other negative feelings and can begin to move on. There is no going back now. I talked to one of my older brothers last December about this. For several years he had felt sad and guilty after leaving and in his mind thought he would eventually return. But after discussing his feelings and thoughts with those of us who had already left and after reading Crisis of Conscience he realized he couldn't go back to the lies.
The things you mentioned, changes, were always there but they are so subtle that the average JW, who barely has time, never notices them because they never read the fine print. That is until quite recently with the advent of the Internet. There is a lot more dicussion and notification of these "little" changes. Still, my parents and oldest brother missed the implications of the change in the "blood" policy of June last year. I told them and I never saw a paper copy of the magazine!
Some things like voting are not really different. A version in print placates lawyers and governments but the rank and file will still be told a different version. The UN now is a "good" organization while the Revelation, Grand Climax book still casts it as a wild beast that "was, was not and was again and soon will be destroyed." Blood is bad still, and the JWs I've talked to have no clue as to what is allowable but the WTS says it is all "good" if you subdivide it small enough you can have 99.9% of it.
When I was a JW I rationalized the changes. Blood fractions were acceptable in my mind because of the rule of placental barrier crossing or being a component of breast-milk. But I relationalized it to death and at some point the whole doctrine toppled for being so unreasonable and illogical.
There is so much to discuss and the repeating of this information in the 100s of posts each day on this and other boards serves to enlighten the lurking R&F. The WTS is going to go through major overhaul in the coming years. There is enough debate and red-hearing frying here at the moment. No-one will know if any major or minor changes will take place until after this year's AGM and Watchtower articles. Lasts year's resignation of the aging GB from the WTS corporations was a major change that barely got a mention in the Watchtower amongst all the fluff of history and the idea that corporations are mere tools to be used and set a side as necessary.
Stay tuned (a certain TV show might be good too...damn! I've done today's version of "when is Dateline on again?") and join in the fray. There are some really good threads on this board.
Sorry to ramble on. But welcome again.
Thirdson
'To avoid criticism, say nothing, do nothing, be nothing'
Edited for spelling and being too lazy to type in a word-processor first.