Welcome my friend! Yes, many are waking up but have to stay quiet. You and I are on the same boat and although is agonizing to sit through a meeting or convention, the idea is to plan your exit carefully.
No matter what moves you take, this religion is setup for the player to lose and the house will always win. What I mean is, we will still lose family, friends, and our reputation. You have to tally up your losses and just prepare for what you will lose. If you chose wisely, the outcome can be a fulfilling life... and who knows? maybe leave a legacy behind.