Hi Fed Up,
The more you look for answers, the more you will come to realize there are no answers that are based on fact when it comes to proving any religion to be true. Religion is based on faith, and faith is just some idea that is rooted in your emotions and imagination, sometimes put there by some ancient writtings, when examined closely are usually full of contradictions and must be explained by some founder of that religion to support their particular view of truth.
No one knows the full truth of the universe and why we are here and what God truly is. There is no proof, only conjecture.
Enjoy your life while you are young, using good judgement learned from observing life, treating others kindly as you would want to be treated, as this will bring you a measure of happiness. Life can deal you some cruel blows, but it can also bring much joy.
Ken P.