Keep in mind that not all "worldly" families are healthy.
Lots of people are vulnerable to cults because of their dysfunctional family lives.
Not being able to become close to your family again proves nothing in regards to "the truth" being a better place to go back to.
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Are you sure you're not an 18-year old kid who lives in Canada and also near Disney who is a professional actor as well as a voice-artist and whose "son" is an atheistic, ex-Bethelite physicist who also is "starting to understand why you loved the JWs so much?"
Or is it the "Borderline Syndrome" after all?