Quandry >> Although I am still an active witness, in fact an elder, it is ONLY because of my family ties. I have already come to the conclusion that this organization does NOT have 'the truth', I have been able to detach God from any man made organization and maintain, in fact, strengthen my personal relationship with Him even more. <<
I'm not an elder but I was forced stepped down - and I'm glad. I feel a lot freer. I'm a JW too but basically inactive and I'm just under the radar screen. I do have friends who are elders. One that I grew up with and consider a good friend but is constantly sad, depressed even. He wasn't that way until about a year into his eldership. He puts up a good face but I know him better than that. I worry about him.
I've learned a lot of things here and from other sources. And, of course, the things you pick up from being in the 'truth' for a while. I'm sure not every disfellowshippment were because of fornication. I'm sure some were apostate charges. And I'm sure some who were driven out because of apostacy didn't go quietly but after giving the elders an earful regarding the organization.
I think my elder friend is having a crisis of conscience. He is not a stupid man. But I hope he survives. I'll be there for him.
I'm glad you are holding up. I'm also very glad that your relationship with Jehovah is stronger as a result. Good for you! For me the disillusionment was a heavy burden but I've learned that for some things the Org was a protection for me. Kept me out of troubles - glad I wasn't an elder's kid, a lot of them get away with murder. [smile] Now that I see the dangers in the Org and from my own 'faithful' friends, I keep my wits. I'm not bitter but so much of my life was a waste. I hope someday that the Org would reform. But I starting to see that that will happen only if the GB were to die or discredit themselves in a big way.
>>Anyway, the information that has especially bothered me is rumors about members of the GB, ie Greenlees, Sydlik, and Jaracz having allegations against them of pedophilia. I don't have the time to really investigate the validity of these accusations, nonetheless I am not quick to discard these allegations as just spurts from disgruntled xjws. If the GB could be responsible for so many injustices as are mentioned in Ray Franz's book COC, (I have not read the book completely, just excerpts here and there) what's to stop them from committing gross sexual sins and even worse ,continue to display such a "holier than thou" attitude? If in the end these allegations are proven, I have a strong feeling it will disenchant so many, it might really be the one card that brings the "whole" house down. <<
I've heard the same rumors. I think they have a basis in fact because I've heard of some wild and inappropiriate activities that have gone on in Bethel.
I think Franz's COC book has disenchanted many. Those that have generally leave or get kicked-out with disfellowshipping. Once they are out of the Org their threat is minimal. It is the very few of us who know that goes on and still continue flying under the radar that worries the Org. We are the cause of the GB's paranoia. They'd love to find us. [smile] But I've noticed through the years how assembly talks and even dramas have such a heavy current of obedience and loyalty to the Org. Even my long time JW friends notice and both tire and worry about it. To borrow a phrase from Princess Leia from Star Wars, 'The more they squeeze, the more we slip through out of their fingers.'
Hang in there, one and all!
Edited by - Roddy on 6 December 2002 1:30:40