While i was reading your post it brought back memories of when I went out in service as a child....I would always say the same thing....and as i got older it changed very little...some of my friends would make fun of me cuz I sounded rediculous. While i was still young I would try to count the doors ahead and see if there were any cars in the driveway and try to make it so that my partner would get those...when i got in the teenage yrs i only went with other teenagers that hated it tooo and we would be out with the group and go up to the door and act like we were knocking, little did they know we werent even touching the door....I felt the same way you did about disturbing ppl..but i have been out for 6 yrs and do you know that I haven't had a jw come to my door....and they wouldnt know not to come cuz i dont live in the same place...Its just funny to me, we used to scour the neighborhoods in my hometown.
magzy28
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Feild service and answering
by shera ini was wondering how you all felt about feild service.. i didn't like it all all,i would have minor anixety attacks and sweaty palms before i went door to door.
i would have a hard time taking a door,so one time,my loving "sister" left me standing at door by myself.i remeber being "happy".
i was very uncomfortable going to peoples door and trying to force religion on them,when they didn't want it.i only went out because it was imbedded in my mind that i had to go door to door to save peoples lives.i didn't want to have blood on my hands of the people i may have helped save with god's words.. with the answering,i almost passed out...lol..i used to be painfully shy.when i didn't answer enough,i would be judged as not being spiritually(sp)strong.the woman i was studing with would try to raise my hand up.the way i looked at it there was no accepting of who you were...had to be like the social butterflies to be accepted.now thats what i call love.
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been away from organization for a while now, yet?.
by intellecta ini found this site accidently i guess.
i have been away from the truth for a while now...6 years... yet it always permeates my mind somehow and i fear the events happening in the world, and wonder.... i guess my problem was that i hated going out door to door as a child.. somehow i hated invading other people's privacy and felt wrong somehow, or embarrased, or just plain hated it period.
i think that is the biggest thing that keeps me away from ever returning.. somehow i, in my small mind cannot understand why small children should do such a thing until they are old enough to at least have a say in it.. like an opinion??
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magzy28
Well this is the first time I've posted anything...but when i read your comment it reminded me of me! I had the same feelings about going in service when I was a child...especially the horror of one of my classmates coming to the door..I always felt that the "truth" was shoved down my throat and that I couldnt have a say in what i thought or felt about what I was made to do. I love my mother do death and wouldnt take anything for her...but she had us (the kids) so afraid of her and her wrath that when we would have our weekly family study and we ( I especially) didnt seem to be all that interested she would ask..."Dont you wanna learn the truth?" ..."Dont you wanna serve Jehovah?" We knew what the answer had to be. I finally got out about 6 yrs ago...started seeing a wordly person and told my parents..they thought i needed to talk to the elders, so when i met with them and told them that I wasnt gonna stop seeing him they jumped all in my shit. Now that i think of it, it wasnt their business I just wanted to make my parents happy. I never got disfellowshiped or disassociated i just quit going...anyhow....im sorry i've talked so much...i was just glad i wasnt the only one with those feelings while growing up
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Hallmarks of the Totalitarian State
by refiners fire ini was just skimming a book by max eastman, a disputer against stalinism in the 30s and 40s.
some interesting things are listed in his book "stalins russia" identifying the hallmarks of the cult of stalin.... .
pages 82 through 86: .
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magzy28
hi this is a test