Well these discussion boards have filled a void that has been missing from my life for several years. When I left Kentucky in 1995 to move to Florida, I left the only good friends I have ever known. Being raised a JW, I grew up very Isolated and never felt like I fit in. After high school, I moved to Kentucky to live near my relatives (non-jw) and made alot of friends up there and felt that I really belonged. After leaving Ky in 1995, I have only come close to having friends. I have felt alone for so many years now, I just wish I could re-capture the happiness I once had back home in Ky. Well anyway basically I have had major feelings toward the WT Society all my life, which ran from fondness to disgust, I was only confused, because I still thought that that was possibly jehovahs true organization and I didnt want to speak out against it too much just in case I decided I wanted to survive armageddon, now I know without a shadow of doubt that its nothing but a lying sack of manure religion, and I want the world to see it for what it really is.
I view the internet as a great tool in helping to expose the WT Society, and I dont blame the internet for my online addictions to these boards, as I have had these feelings for quite some time and no outlet to vent them on.
If it wasnt for the internet, I would still be thinking today that Armageddon could come at any moment. I no longer live in fear of Armageddon. I still have alot of unresolved issues about the WT Society and my elder Dad, and someday when Im able to tell him just exactly how I feel, then I may just decide to take a break from EX-JW life and just be a normal, everyday person.