It seems to me that leaving the Watchtower is a lot like breaking any addiction. Before I quit smoking some years ago, I was afraid. I was afraid of the withdrawal symptoms & I was afraid what my life would be like without tobacco. When I finally made the plunge, I found out that, with the help of the patch, withdrawal symptoms weren't so bad and now that I'm smoke free, I'm healthier & feel a lot better. The only downside is that I'm a bit chubbier than I was, but maybe there's a message in that too.
Blessings
Zap