Hamas,
I am in exactly the same situation as you. I am slowly fading away from being a JW and I am looking at my old pre-JW beliefs (I was RC before). I have seen evidence to support the Trinity, plus evidence to refute it. There are scriptures that back it up, and others that prove it is not true. It is so confusing. I also find so many contradictions with the Bible that I didn't see as JW. The thing is, I really want to believe in the Bible. It has been with me all my life, as a RC and as a JW. To find out now that it may not be true is really hard to deal with.
How do others deal with this? What is there for us to put faith in if we don't have the Bible? I have been doing some research into the Bible's history, including all the books that were not included. It seems that, until roughly 150 years ago (maybe a little longer) there were 80 books, but that figure seems to have been whittled down to 66. Also, if you go way back, there were hundreds of books that could have made it into the Bible Canon, but for one reason or another they were rejected. I would like to know why. It seems it was just the decision made at the time - the Bible could well have 100, 200 or 300 books if it wasn't for a decision made way back when. Maybe the correct books were rejected and the wrong ones included - who knows?
What I am trying to say is I don't know what to believe any more. At least, as a JW, I felt I had all the answers. Now I have nothing and I am more confused than ever. My husband still insists the JWs have it right and he thinks I am putting myself at risk by rejecting their message. I just don't know.
Just needed to get that off my chest.
xxR