Posts by mamashel

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The Overbeer's New Toy

by Valis in

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well, i've finally saved enough and w/a little help from the dealership i am now the proud owner of a honda shadow 600 vt....not quite a harley, but it rocks!

just thought i would share and let the wholesome apostate sisters that rides are only a nickle..... .

sincerely,.

mamashel

Valis, I wanna go first, my nickle is in the mail.

That is one nice bike dude!

Have fun, and be careful.

mamashel

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Our Magic Ride

by onacruse in

katie and i went to newberg, oregon for our balloon trip.

sunday morning, 7:00 a.m., cool, crisp, totally clear.. .

expert balloonist craig holds the tie wires, just like he was told.

mamashel

OMG! THAT IS SO WONDERFUL! CONGRATS YOU GUYS.

LOVE IS IN THE AIR! NO PUN INTENDED.

I WISH YOU BOTH ALL THE HAPPINESS IN THE WORLD.

MAMASHEL

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What Was the Most Unbelievable Thing You've Heard?

by minimus in

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what's the most unbelievable thing you've ever heard while you were a witness?

one thing that stands out for me is being told that i would never go thru junior or high school because the end was right around the corner.....what about you??

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This is the God's truth. One day when my mother-in-law came by the house finding herself trying to encourage us to come back to the meetings, I told her i didnt want anything to do with it any more. She looked me right in the eyes and told me (now remember this is our kids grandmother) that my children were going to be eaten by the crows in the end times.

Nice grandma, huh

mamashel

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A Healthy Grief Versus Unnatural Rejection

by Englishman in

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her ladyship and i have been "just a couple" now for 4 weeks.

simon's in australia, james is in a flat nearby, and ben is at cardiff university.

and we miss 'em!

mamashel

E-man, Great post. That is one of the things that made me the most upset about the org. I have 6 children and even though they can push every button I have, and they attach some more buttons to push (), I cant even imagine shunning them. It would hurt me to my heart to do that to them, but the worst part would be how bad it would hurt them. I feel sick for the ones that are treated like that. My husband and I have been out for about 7 months now, and his family is starting to shun us more and more. It doesnt really bother me but he's a grown man and i can see the hurt in his eyes, so i can only imagine the pain that some have had to to through. It really saddens me.

mamashel

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QUEENIE home from HOSPITAL !!

by QUEENIE in

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yes everyone i am home from the hospital after a 3--1/2 week stay due to veineous leg ulcers...as a diebetic it takes forever to heal..now another 3 month rest...no line dancing no dancing at all..in a few minutes i have been instructed by lisa to lay down and put up my feet 4 a while...i have been sitting up long enough...now i need to take a nap...i will compose something as to my stay it was an experience to say the least...i missed you all..i am addicted to this site !!!

(((((hugs))))) queenie

mamashel

((((((((((((((((((((((((queenie)))))))))))))))))))))))

I'm glad your home and feeling better. Get all your rest you need, and stay off those dancin toes.

Get well soon.

mamashel

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I AM A NEWBIE, NEED HELP

by wildfire in

i have been lurking around here for some time,,, i personally know laurie fitzwater and what she has gone through we lived in bradenton.

florida in the late 80's .... she is the one telling me to come here for help ,,, a hug ,,, i have a nightmare of a story which involves married to a professed annointed one who made me and my childrens life pure hell on earth....i guess he needed to be replaced as he was df twice and was never a ms or elder..... go figure i suffer from severe depression and post-traumatic stress and have tried to end it all numerous times... but the turning point for me was this demon--inspired internet and all the truth it contains i also read george orwells.. 1984 --big brother is watching ,,,, doublespeak;;;; its us versus them just to name a few of my eye---opening events i have 5 children,,, and only one my baby (16) in the borg....... i really cant go on ,,, i have emailed lady lee and she helped me alot .... but i have to be careful...... there are spies everywhere....i still attend meetings.

to some extent... missed the assembly this weekend tho.. so please be gentle and reasure me.... i am baby--stepping,,, i am doing the work.............

mamashel

(((((((((((((((((((((((Wildfire))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Welcome! Welcome! Baby steps are a good thing. You have to take baby steps to learn how to walk. I you just started running with what information you are learning, you would never really come to a full understanding of it. You will be just fine. Reasure yourself every day and tell yourself everyday that you are doing the right thing. I was still attending meetings when i was starting to disect the information, and i finally got to a point that i couldnt even sit through a meeting anymore because it made me sick. One day at a time is all you can work with, and like i said before, tell yourself you are doing the right thing. It takes time to reprogram. I'll keep you in my prayers. It will be allright. You are among many people who will help you get through this. We've all been where you are right now.

mamashel

28

Tearing me to shreds

by Mimilly in

things have been going great for me as of late.

i should've known - should've been wary.

good things don't happen to me without a price.

mamashel

Mim, dont even pay attention to people who dont understand and want to act like they got it all together, those are the ones that are a mess, and dont want anyone to know about it.

Just keep focussed and look in the mirror every day and tell yourself something good about yourself.

Vent all you want babygirl!

mamashel

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Have you ever had a premonition?

by DanTheMan in

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in 1990 one of my best friends (mike) was riding in a van with another friend of mine who was driving (scott).

they pulled into the parking lot of a mini-mart that was in a bad part of town, to say the least (people often referred to it as "uzi alley").

the reason they pulled in was because they thought they recognized someone in the parking lot.

mamashel

Hey dan, I know the "oozy alley" your referring to, must be the little spot that used to be called Greenbriar huh. (We're from the same city)

I've had feelings like that before, and they scared me, but i cant explain what they are or why it happens. I used to have this senareo play over and over in my head about my first husband getting killed and an officer coming to the house to tell me that he had been killed. He did end up getting killed though, but it was his mother that called and told me what happened. I think because of the lifestyle that he led, drinking and drugs, that is what made me think that something was going to happen to him because of the dangerous life he lead.

Just my thoughts

Shelley

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What are your thoughts on writing DA letters?

by mamashel in

as most of you know, i have been inactive for about 2 1/2 yrs and completely out for about 7 months.

i am debating on wether or not to write a letter of da to the org or not.

in some ways i just want closure, and on the other hand i dont want to play by their rules.

mamashel

Thanks everyone. I have read Crisis of Conscience and it did wonders for me when i first left. It really opened my eyes more than anything else.

My hubbys family may shun us, but we really dont care, because they are so full of crap anyway, and so hypicritcal, its rediculous. One loves to come over and throw in our face how he had all these hours in field service, but his wife calls on the weekend wanting to talk to him because he told her he fell asleep on our couch Friday night, hhhmmm, i never saw him all weekend, wonder where he was????

That was one of the reasons we left, was becuase the elders were on us to make our meetings better, and to be out in service, but i told them i could not go door to door and be a hypocrite, because if i am cussing at home and acting a fool at home, i couldnt go to the door and smile in someones face and sit in their home conducting a bible study.

I still dont think i will write the letter though. I really like all the suggestions and responses. Thanks

SHelley

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Tearing me to shreds

by Mimilly in

things have been going great for me as of late.

i should've known - should've been wary.

good things don't happen to me without a price.

mamashel

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((mim))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I feel your pain sweetheart. Been there done that. And i dont say that lightly like everything is just ok in a day. It is a very painful thing to love someone so much, and also hate them too. You are hurting right now, and the best thing you can do is to let yourself feel your pain. Dont try to push it away, just take it one day at a time. I had to learn to love myself first and tell myself that I will be ok with, or without this man in my life that i felt like i could'nt even breathe without in my life. I acted so ugly, i litterly pushed him out the door. We did end up in the end getting back together, but it was a long long road, and still is.

I hope things work out well for you, but as i said before, take one day at a time, and get to know yourself, and what really makes you happy, and then look for someone or something else to make you happy. You never know, he may get out there and relize what he is missing, and you may be the one to tell him it's too late. I hope you feel better soon hon.

love

mamashel