Youngonce, That's really interesting, please let me know if you find the name of the book. I'd love to read it. els
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16Bizarre Dream
by els ini had the strangest dream last night.
there was a wedding and some of my family was at it.
afterward we were outside and there was a ufo in the night sky, a long skinny one like the one in the news a few weeks ago.
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What's your favourite cola?
by JH inthere are so many colas on the market, but 2 of them stick out.
coke and pepsi.
i love coke and hate pepsi.
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I don't know about the chain restaurants but where I am most places serve Pepsi. This is because The servicing dept. for Coke used to be based in Albany which is about 45 minutes away. If your soda machine broke down or you needed something you often didn't get any help till the next day. So most places went with Pepsi cause you could get fast service from them. Now the place where I work still has Pepsi cause the head of the sales gets my boss the most freebies; merchadise, golf games, tickets to events and local attractions, you name it. els
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Bizarre Dream
by els ini had the strangest dream last night.
there was a wedding and some of my family was at it.
afterward we were outside and there was a ufo in the night sky, a long skinny one like the one in the news a few weeks ago.
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Swan, I think the tiger represented my feelings about the truth, my anger I guess. I never would talk about it much because it just didn't do any good. But in a family group situation the subject of my inactivity was bound to come up, probably in the form of stories about the good times we had and what a good witness I was. I thought I could handle it but my dream warned me that I couldn't, that I would have to get ahold of my feelings and stuff them back in. Maybe I should have gone to that party and let the tiger loose. els
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Bizarre Dream
by els ini had the strangest dream last night.
there was a wedding and some of my family was at it.
afterward we were outside and there was a ufo in the night sky, a long skinny one like the one in the news a few weeks ago.
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I remember a dream I had guite a few years ago. I've been inactive a long time but have managed to have a relationship with my family. There was going to be a family get together and I was scared about going because I felt like I might get ganged up on. This is the dream I had. I was going to the party but I had a tiger with me, on a leash. Ken kept asking me if I was sure I wanted to go. I told him it was fine, that I could control the tiger. So we went and I tied up the tiger to a tree near the picnic tables. So it was OK for a while, but then the tiger started snarling and trying to get loose. The whole time no one was saying anything about the tiger. So finally it got loose and was running around and I had to catch it and stuff it in my car and leave. After this dream I decided I wasn't going to the party. els
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Bizarre Dream
by els ini had the strangest dream last night.
there was a wedding and some of my family was at it.
afterward we were outside and there was a ufo in the night sky, a long skinny one like the one in the news a few weeks ago.
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Thank's JH...You just had to rub it in didn't you. [>:(] els
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What's your favourite cola?
by JH inthere are so many colas on the market, but 2 of them stick out.
coke and pepsi.
i love coke and hate pepsi.
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Coke classic definately. No diet, no vanilla, no lemon. But you're killing me with this thread cause I'm trying the Atkins diet and I haven't had any Coke for 2 days. I want one soooo bad. els
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Bizarre Dream
by els ini had the strangest dream last night.
there was a wedding and some of my family was at it.
afterward we were outside and there was a ufo in the night sky, a long skinny one like the one in the news a few weeks ago.
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I had the strangest dream last night. There was a wedding and some of my family was at it. Afterward we were outside and there was a UFO in the night sky, a long skinny one like the one in the news a few weeks ago. Then there were more of them and they were shooting these beams of light across the sky. Next things started blowing up and there was a nuclear sort of explosion. I was trying to get people in my family to leave the area but they kept saying that it was Armageddon and that Jehovah would save them. I started shouting that it wasn't Armageddon, that the Bible doesn't say anything about any f...ing UFOs. But they still wouldn't leave so I had to go without them. I woke up this morning feeling depressed and out of sorts. Do any of you have dreams like this? I always have had very symbolic dreams and some that seem to come true. els
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Question for Everyone
by Wild_Thing in.
are there any other chronic lurkers out there?
just wondering ...
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Wild Thing, I think I love you! Love the name anyway.
I lurked here for about a month before I actually posted. Took me a couple months more to get into chat. Now I'm here almost every day and can't wait for chat to be back. It's a great place, you will learn alot and get so much support here. Tell us your story sometime. I'll be watching for you. els -
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I cried for the past
by joelbear ini cried for a long time today, very deeply, sobbing heavily for those i have lost in my life.
mostly due to watchtower rules.. i am developing a new set of bear friends and look forward to good times with them.. the suicidal thoughts have subsided.. i have never really tried to make a concrete set of friends here.
i think its time to do so.
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Joelbear, Don't worry about the tears, I find myself doing the same thing and I usually don't know why. I will be having a pretty good day and then out of the blue I'm just sobbing my heart out. I hope it's just part of the process.
I'm relieved that you are not feeling as suicidal, it's a really scary thing. I've only ever had sort of stray thoughts about ending it and I've always immediately thought it was nuts. Still the thought was there and it scared the shit out of me. Then I get pissed off that anyone, my family included, could have that kind of power over me.
So I'm doing the best I can, enjoying my husband and kids, and tentatively reaching out to make new friends. I hope you can do the same. I keep listening to the U2 song "Stuck in a Moment".
"And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along the stormy pass
It's just a moment
This time will pass.You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment and now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better now
You're stuck in a moment and you can't get out of it"
Don't know why but it makes me cry but feel better too. els -
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Kingdom Hall personalities
by freedom96 injust as people have different personalities, i believe that individual congregations also had their own personality.. the hall i went to while growing up, was just awful.
the po of the hall was known in the entire area, and was just a tyrant.
there were no grey areas.
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When I was growing up our congregation was one of the fun ones. We had square dances, rollerskating, picnics, swimming, softball, iceskating and sledding. Any excuse for a good party. We had a lot of fun and I thought I had a lot of good friends. All this did make it hard to leave but I never really did believe and there were alot of things wrong that weren't taken care of. So I walked away and found out that despite all the fun, my friends weren't really all that concerned about me.
Now, years later I'm not DAed or DFed but everyone really knows where I stand and my family shuns me. The congregation is still fun though and the people there now really seem to care about my parents. They take really good care of them. Which makes me pretty certain that even if I could expose the problems with the society they wouldn't consider leaving because it's their whole life and to them it is a good one. els