Blackghost:
You're defiantely not alone. There's thousands of us out there who have gone though so many new realizations after leaving the little village of the watchtower. And when we realize the time that was lost, the opportunities, the love that we missed, it can sometimes seem overbearing. But you're not alone in that. And though there may be no true silver lining ot the cloud, I have found, that I have lived far more vibrantly then if I had lived a mundane life of not-knowing. We've already done our shift in purgatory and came back to tell the tell. Freedom and our own aspirations will always be treasured more by us, this way.
Welcome to the board
Gita